dissapointment

× Your Massive Support Is What Keep's Me Going On With My Life. I Can No Longer Take This Abuse Of My So Called Adoptive Family. They Take My Money When I Buy Thing's And Eat It Without Permission. If Something Is Needed I Replace It. But I'm Not Doing It. Anymore This Abuse Has To STOP. I Don't Deserve This Petty Behavior From All Of My Sibling's. I'm Done I Need To Walk Away And Never Look Back. Idk Why My Parent's Even Botherd To Adopt Me. They Should Have Just Kept My Brother. Sincerely, ☆ S.K. ☆#insomuchpain #dissapointment

I know that no one might ever find this, but I'm so tired of people putting my hopes up then crushing me like they really don't care. My life has been a series of disappointment and misfortune and the people closest to me are the one who hurte sooooo much. I really really can't deal anymore. It hurts so bad and I don't know how to deal with all these emotions inside of me. I really feel like I'm suffocating and drowning at the same time. I can't breathe.
My heart hurts my head hurts everything hurts I am I'm pain literal pain and the sad thing is I will wake up tomorrow and smile and move knew with my life.
#Pain
#sad
#Depression
#dissapointment

I forgot a very important date for my BFF today. She had an appointment for a biopsy and I completely forgot!  I had it in my calendar but I forgot to set the reminder.

I'm devastated.  Crushed.  Deflated.  She said she was disappointed and hurt that I forgot and I don't blame her. She said I can sometimes be self absorbed.  Here is what she wrote:

Honestly, I'm hurt you didn't remember.  You knew how scared I was and you said you would be "there every step of the way".

I was sitting in the waiting room at the hospital shaking like leaf and I get a text from you telling me how bummed you are about your job.  I listen to all your issues about anxiety, depression, money and/or job.  I may not always be able to to help you but I do pay attention.

I know this sounds harsh but I'm truly hurt that you didn't remember this ONE thing of mine.

I know you have tough time dealing with things day to day and I truly worry about you but you can sometimes be too self involved.  
If it's OK, I'm going to pass on Saturday.  I love you but I need a break".

We had plans to do some gardening at my place.  She's been helping me because I have zero gardening experience and her garden always looks so professional and lovely.

I can't imagine what she must think of me.  Of what her husband must think of me.

I'm truly devastated and not in a good place right now. She means everything to me. I did something to hurt her.  I don't know if I can ever forgive myself.

I totally get it. I do talk about my issues too much. I hope I have not lost my best friend of 34 years. I could not live without her. I'm such a burden and a bother and a loser.  FML.

#Nothappy #verysad #regret #Heartbroken #dissapointment

Three weeks ago, I was supposed to have a total hysterectomy. At the last minute my surgeon cancelled the surgery due to concerns of whether or not it would be safe to operate. In order to go back on the schedule, I need to get cleared again. However, not having the surgery has thrown me into a deep depression. As my body gets weaker, I don’t have the motivation to get myself together to get cleared for surgery. Just wondering if anyone has gone through something similar and how do bounce back when you’re feeling disappointed and depressed? #Depression #TotalHysterectomy #dissapointment

I try to educate my family about what I go thru and they don’t respond or engage in a conversation with me. They act as if I am seeking pity and I can see their eyes rolling. I have never felt so discouraged in my life. Is it that they think so little of me that they can’t even try? I don’t know why they don’t care anymore. Maybe it’s the years of being in an emotional rollercoaster and now that I have more control over my emotions they think I am going to take a nose dive and things will get worse again. They don’t realize their lack of engagement in my life is just what will cause it. I would say I am done, but getting them to understand has been my life long mission. Just disappointed they don’t seem to care. #personalitydisorder #PTSD #bi #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #FamilyAndFriends #dissapointment

Hey y’all, I just thought I’d let y’all know that unfortunately I wasn’t accepted into the Kindermusik program. #feelingsodisappointedinmyself #dissapointment

She is a bright, hard working student who is now so anxious she can't make it to her classes, and that builds on the #Shame , #dissapointment and #Anxiety