Dramatic

I think today is the worst day of my life but I’m not sure cause I could just be dramatic but I don’t know anymore.
I just got into a relationship and I don’t know how to deal with it because I really like this guy but also I’ve never been in a relationship so I’m scared I’ll fuck it up or be clingy or something. Either way I’m really confused and he didn’t ask to hang out today so I feel sad or something cause maybe I’m the worst??? Like FUCK hey insecurities that are annoying and unrational. I just don’t want to be annoying to him and I think he thinks I’m dramatic but hey I hate myself, yea

I was standing in line by myself for a carriage ride at a theme park but I asked for a certain seat because I was feeling anxious and they couldn’t give preferred seating. I understand. But I couldn’t handle it after waiting an hour and beginning to feel claustrophobic, so I ran. I feel kinda dumb. But I did it. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t this dramatic.