immunosuppression

I’ve been struggling with a lifetime of anxiety, depression and physical pain and illness, likely all stemming from long-term trauma. From chronic pain to extreme delayed gastric mobility to constant infections because my body has no immune system. I’ve managed to create somewhat of a life worth living, but it’s never without challenges. I work in residential behavioral health care as a counselor and I love my job. However, I’ve been sick with an unknown upper respiratory infection, and I’m stressed not knowing if it’s COVID-19, but the safest thing for me to do is wait it out at home in isolation, rather than ride public transportation for 2 hours to see my PCP or infect clients at work. Throughout this I am fighting social security because they claim that I’m responsible for this absurd amount of overpayment, when 2 staff at their office has told me I am 100% not responsible, the system is. Yet I still have to prove it somehow. It makes me so mad about how I grew up because I wouldn’t be in this position if that hadn’t happened. It’s overwhelming and I’m stressed and worn down. I’m so depressed and feel so alone. Thank goodness for my therapist who had a video/phone session with me today and my psychiatrist who has been checking on me daily. I’m also stressed because if what I have isn’t COVID-19, I’m still at high risk of getting it because of my immune system, which we’re still trying to figure out why my numbers are so freaking low, but I need to work and my work needs me. I feel so helpless and hopeless, and I just need to get this out of me so it doesn’t continue to fester. #COVID19 #depressed #SexualTrauma #Gastroparesis #immunodeficiency #immunosuppression