I received my formal diagnosis from my neurologist for my seizures and it just makes everything fall together. I’m so happy I finally have a diagnosis because it feels like I can just move on with things now and focus on getting better.
Me and my boyfriend attended an awards evening, not too sure if it was because there were lots of people there, I’d had a drink or because of all the excitement, but I ended up having a seizure in front of everyone. My partner (Ben) told me that no one was looking when I was having my fit, and I found out afterwards that quite a lot of people saw but Ben had told them subtly not to make a fuss. I’m happy about this because it enabled me to come out of the seizure quicker, hearing him say that no one was watching me, but now if I have them in the future and he says that am I going to believe him?!
I really felt like it was going to be a typical night out of having seizures (when I have a drink usually one starts it off and then they just don’t stop. I kept feeling like I was going to have one and really felt quite annoyed by them as I thought I wasn’t going to be able to control them but I used a ‘grounding’ technique and some breathing exercises which I think helped in the long run and stopped drinking for a while. I told myself that ‘I wasn’t going to have any more seizures and that I control them, it’s been proven’ and then I didn’t have any more that night.
It just goes to show that to a certain extent I can control these fits, it will take a while before I can learn to do that 100% of the time but I’m happy with knowing I’ve done it once! It’ll come eventually, I’m sure :)
Hope everyone is having a lovely Sunday wherever you are ❤️🙏🏼 #PNES #SeizureDisorder #Nead #PTSD #Stress