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So we are an OSDD system and tonight we have a band concert at our school. We play the flute and have been playing for almost 3 years now. Whenever we play we have to be careful and ground ourselves so then we don't dissociate during the concert. It always gets weird when you end up in band class after just being in your bedroom and having NO IDEA how to play the flute lol.

Anyways, this is our last concert before Great East(For those who don't know, Great East is where all the 3 grades in our school, chorus, and band, perform in front of a group of judges and get a plaque on how good we did, then head to Six Flags for the rest of the day until 8:00) so wish us luck! :]

#osdd #band #osddandschool #wishusluck #DID #Anxiety

So, we've been thinking a lot lately, and we've decided we want to tell our host's boyfriend we have OSDD. The only issue with this is we don't know how to tell him. He's been so supportive throughout our friendship and relationship, with some of our alters. From their therianthropy, anxiety, coping mechanisms, and age regression.

We want to tell him this in a way that won't cause a break in a great relationship and make things awkward. We trust him so much, and we would hate to lose our two-year relationship as well as our friendship. Does anybody have any ideas or advice???

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder #osdd #Relationships #Advice #ideas #help

Hello new members and so excited you joined 'A Safe Sapce'! My name is Kate and I'm a part of the Morning Chaos System. We are an OSDD system, and we may do alter intros at some point. Super excited you've joined, so enjoy!

#osdd #DID #newmembers #SafeSpace #Anxiety #Autism #ASD #SH #SuicidalIdeation #Bettertogether

Hello! I found this on one of our bookmark websites so I decided to check this out. I was confused at first until I saw Vee, our external caregiver's post, and Kat/Karl's (role to be determined) comment. After reading a few posts from others, I wanted to post an intro, so here it goes.

My name is Berrybee, and I'm the system's protector and Co-host. I use She/her and She/they pronouns. Excited and nervous to see what is to come in the future, but until then, Hi!

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder

#osdd

I’m here because #MightyTogether #CPTSD #Anxiety #Depression #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #ChronicPain #achillestendonosis #osdd

Hello folks! This is Jules, host of the Many but One DID system. For those that don't know, DID stands for dissociative identity disorder, previously known as MPD (multiple personality disorder.) I have been diagnosed and in therapy for about a year and a half now, with a DID specialist. It's been a real rollercoaster! However, I have a passion for helping people (systems and non-systems included!) understand what it's like to live with DID and that we are NOT what the media makes us out to be. There's loads of misinformation about DID out there, either from uninformed psychiatrists or from DID systems who simply don't do research or don't understand the disorder well enough, and unfortunately, from Hollywood directors looking to make money off of a deeply stigmatized and misunderstood disorder. I'm not saying I am a professional, however, I want to open up a dialogue.

So please! Ask me anything! Don't worry about offending me or asking something weird or silly! I am open to ALL questions of any manner. I want people to be able to ask questions without fear of ridicule. Questions like these are what help stop misinformation from spreading, and allow us to have a better understanding of DID and its complexity. If you have a partner or child with DID and I don't know how to answer your question, I may source my wife or my parents to give you the answer that would best help you.

Again, I want to preface, I am NOT a professional, and I will mostly be sharing personal experience or experiences I have heard from other DID/OSDD systems I know. (with nothing identifying them AT ALL.) If I feel your question needs research, I will try to provide sources that I know will help answer your question. I also want to say that my experience is not THE ONLY DID experience, as DID is incredibly diverse in presentation and expression.

I'd love to hear from you! Peace!

-Jules

#MightyTogether #DID #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #PTSD #CPTSD #Childhoodtrauma #Trauma #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #discussion #questions #osdd

Contrary to the title of the post, the wedding was fantastic, and we did much more than just survive it–we loved it and had a great time. However, the weeks leading up to the wedding were tense, both in terms of planning for the wedding itself and planning how our DID system would handle the wedding event.

Hello, I am Jules, and I am the host of a DID system known as Many But One on many forms of social media. The DID system I am a part of has around 20-25+ members—I say an estimate because things change, parts split and fuse or go dormant, so it’s hard to keep track of an exact number, not to mention I am fully aware that there are many more alters that I have not been allowed to meet yet, as per our gatekeeper’s request. (The gatekeeper of the system acts as a “leader” of sorts and is usually aware of all alters in the system and works to keep alters that are not ready to be “out” away from others.)

To begin, three of us were dating our fiance. Me (Jules, host), James (the gatekeeper), and Foster (a co-host and protector). We all have an established relationship with our wife and were all on board with getting married to her. There are several other adults in the system, most of which are not with my wife because 1) they are not attracted to women, 2) they think of her more as a friend, or 3) they are not ready for a relationship or have no desire for a relationship.

From the beginning, the three of us knew we all wanted to be a part of the wedding in some way. We had been working on co-consciousness (often shortened to co-con, which means having more than one alter in control of the body) and communication between the three of us. Out of everyone in the system, we have the best communication and all get along very well for the most part. With our therapist we came up with a tentative plan of action for our wedding day. James or I would handle the ceremony while Foster handled picture-taking and the receiving line, as well as any social interaction. Foster is highly social, doesn’t care about getting his picture taken, and doesn’t care about people touching him when he is aware of their intentions. James and I are much more wary on those fronts, so we knew he would thrive in those positions. James and I were also the ones to write the vows, though he did most of it and I edited and trimmed down what he wrote to make sure it wasn’t too long.

Almost a year prior we had come to the conclusion that we would be okay with wearing a wedding dress. I am non-binary and generally prefer androgynous or masculine clothing, James is a cis male and hates femme clothing, and Foster is genderfluid and loves any kind of clothing, especially fancy or statement pieces of clothing. Wedding dresses are the ultimate statement piece, so he was thrilled by me deciding I wanted a dress. James relented, as he knew it would upset us if we didn’t get to wear a wedding dress on the ONE day of our lives we would get to wear one.

On the day before the wedding, I had been trying to practice smooth switching. As in, switching in a way that wasn’t obvious. It was not possible at that time. Positive triggers to get the other two out were not working, and our communication was not great that day. I cannot control switching in the slightest, though I can somewhat coax one to happen on occasion. This usually means we have to have excellent communication and trust with one another. This day was not a good day for practicing switches. I worried very much that I would be stuck doing the whole wedding, doing stuff I really didn’t like such as pictures and hugs. However, come the wedding day, things were flawless. There was very little “lag time” between any switches we went through and we all executed our parts perfectly, with me mostly co-con during the entire wedding. Our officiant was aware of our DID and said some beautiful words regarding it, something that would not be immediately obvious to someone who doesn’t know about the DID, but was clear for us and meant a lot to us. Here it is:

“May you honor the complex dimensions of one another in ways that reflect your commitment to loving and embracing every part of one another, even the parts that might be scary or unrecognized.”

It was a beautiful speech, and our wife and James got to say their vows to each other. It was a beautiful wedding!

For those of you with DID that want to get married or struggle to handle big social gatherings, having a plan is the best thing we could have done for ourselves. Knowing who would tackle what and using each other’s strengths was paramount for our ability to get through a wedding with almost 90 guests in attendance. However, if I can do it, so can you!

-Jules, host of the “Many but One” DID system

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#DID #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #osdd #osdd1 #DIDSystem #didalters #everydaylife #manybutone #plural #functionalmultiplicity

She’s 100% convinced its a ‘Vitamin D deficiency’, despite of the fact that it doesn’t add up to what I have. She doesn’t believe she abused me as a child, she gaslights me saying my traumatic memories are false, etc. despite of the fact that when I turned 12-13 I felt I was dropped off at a station with barely a backstory. I even admitted to someone when I was 16 that I could barely remember my childhood(that was until I would eventually integrate with some of my nameless alters).

Actually, come to think of it, my entire FAMILY(except for my sister) doesn’t want to accept me as a system despite it not being my choice. Coming out to my family as a system just makes me wish I said nothing.

One final thing, being a system isn’t a last resort disorder. You CAN heal from your trauma, even if you don’t fully integrate. I’m sick and tired of this “”stigma”” where being a system means your life is over and you won’t get far in life. You can do it. If no one else supports you, I’ll support you.

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder #ChildhoodAbuse #osdd #CPTSD

Hello! My name is Adrian and I am the host of our system. We have 21 members (including myself) as of 03/25/2022. I don't like thinking of myself as "a person with a system" because that feels like I'm invalidating our alters, who are just as much real people as I am. I'm an alter too. Just because we all see me as the 'core' or whatever, doesn't make me more important than them. It isn't easy dealing with everyone, but I really do care about them. We're unsure whether our symptoms match DID or OSDD, so we call ourselves 'questioning' #DID #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #DIDSystem #osdd #osddsystem #DissociativeDisorder