Panic Attacks

Anxiety attacks, panic attacks.
They’re like a hurricane. If you’re watching the ocean shrink back, it’s already too late. You can try to run, but you’ll never be faster than the walls of water coming for you. Maybe you’ll get lucky and have enough of a head start, that you’ll only have to swim for a little while. Maybe you’ll get lucky and someone will reach out their hand and pull you to safety before the waves overtake you.
But most of the time…. You get wiped out, caught up in the all power of the waves. Your head bobs in and out of the water’s insanity. You catch your breath and poke your head up long enough to have hope. Then you’re dragged backed down, disoriented, drowning, confused.
And sometimes, the harder you fight to find the surface, the deeper you’re pulled under or spun around. Hoping, praying that someone sees you drowning and brings a life boat to drag you out. But really, you’re just holding your breath. Waiting for the calm to come, hoping you survive this time….just like you have the other times.
When the calm finally does come…all you feel is exhaustion. You’re too tired to move or even think. Everything seems like a dream, unreal, no thoughts, no feelings….just pure exhaustion. When you can, you dry yourself off and try your best to prepare for the next one. Because it will come, it’s unavoidable. But for now…..take that breath because you earned it.

I took a break from counseling, but now I am back in it because I have been having panic attacks and meltdowns. The good news is my new coping skills are already working. They are singing, dancing, praying, writing, tai Chi, focus on what I can control, and deep breathing. The reason why I have been experiencing those things is because my boyfriend who lives in Uganda and I are taking a break so that he can fully recover from his serious illnesses that he got from dirty water and mosquito bites and we can both regain our mental health. It is a good thing those because I feel so much better. Oh and I am also getting new caregivers because two of them are pregnant and experiencing issues related to it. Just got out of my exercise class.

Currently having a panic attack n can’t breathe someone help me

She was in the mood for blueberry pancakes tonight so that's what we had at 1am. I feel bloated and grumpy. I don't know if I should have eaten them but they were delicious.

I've been having restless arms for the last few hours. I took a pregabalin and then konked out for an hour. But when I woke up my arms still hurt.

I've been fighting with my hair all day. It's just way too long and keeps getting in my eyes. I am using a hair clip but my hair doesn't adhere to the laws of physics.

I had a panic attack today. I took my night meds last night so that's not what caused it. I tried using fingernail clippers but my hands were so shaky. I accidentally cut one nail too far. It didn't bleed though.

I'm in a very sour mood. I am tired of being talked down to and the passive aggressive BS.

When I was going through my hell, I always wished I had someone I could open up to in hopes that they could help me. I would of gave my right arm for that. I want to offer my real life experience ( no college degree or textbooks) of what it took to overcome my isolation, severe anxiety, panic attacks, depression, and agoraphobia. But only YOU can take that first step,. Take a chance and reach out, I'm here for YOU, no judgement, just a desire to possibly help someone with something close to my heart, that's all.