Panic Attacks

Well. As the holidays roll around (Thanksgiving and Christman for me) my emotions are all over the place. I am happy for like food on Thanksgiving and gifts on Christmas, but I also dreed those events.

I have to go to my Omas (Grandmas) for both events. And to my misfortune, there are so, so many people. All very religious people. I am not religious at all, well not all the way. My religion is a bit weird to others. So I don't like talking about it. But I hate family gatherings. They talk way to much.

"How have you been doing?" "How's school going?" "Are you still in Spanish?" "Thats a pretty dress." I hate when people, mainly family, ask me stuff like this. My Gender Dysphoria is always at its all-time high on these days. Its hard living in a family that thinks Lgbtq people don't exist. Thats hard a Transfluid, AroAce (More specifically Cupioromatic/Cupiosexual)

I am lucky for my Aunt (Who is supportive and also doesn't like big groups of people) because when things get too overwhelming for me, we can stand out. And I mean my mom is good also, helping me when I need it. But I wrote this not to rant, but to ask for help.

Any advice on how to like try to control my anxiety? Like any recommended coping skills? Any help is appreciated.

Thank you all and have a great day/night.

#Depression #SocialAnxiety #SocialAnxietyDisorder #SocialPhobia #ADHD #GenderDysphoria #PanicAttacks #LGBTQ

As soon as I got in her car she asked if I wanted to go anywhere so I said yeah how about 7-Eleven. She said not a problem. So we went there and I got a cappuccino and a donut.

I kinda have been having a panic attack for the last hour but I don't know why. I have been trying to ignore my hands but I cut off the tips of my nails. I'm getting ingrown nails again. Or still. I don't know at what point it's healed.

My caseworker is going to take me and my caregiver to Aldi next month. She said she has been worried about me getting groceries cuz she used to take me to Aldi and Meijer. She knows I have been getting my groceries through Instacart for the last year and she knows I'm on a limited income. So we are going to get some food for the holidays after I get my food stamps.

I've got a nasty bleeding fissure again. I should probably go see my GI doctor. But I never got my labs done for her last year. I'll just keep an eye on symptoms and if it gets worse I will go to urgent care.

#Caregiving #behavioralhealthhome #PanicAttacks #MentalHealth

Not doing well this week. Took a day off work because I was having panic attacks yesterday, today I get to go see how much trouble I'm in.

I just breathed my way out of a severe panic attack. My body was numb, I’m still shaking, I was afraid I was going to have to go to the hospital because my heart was racing so severely and I couldn’t feel my body. I did box breathing and said to myself (honestly without believing it at the time) “I am in control” and knowing panic disorder is often time the fear of panic attacks themselves I even told myself “bring it on, if it happens it happen” it was out of pure desperation to not loose this battle but I tried to fight it in anyway I could. And then all of a sudden. My heart started to go back to a normal heart rate and I could feel my skin again without all of the vibrating numbness… I am now here in bed, not in the hospital, not passed out, and writing to this community. I haven’t had many successes like this without my emergency anxiety meds so I’m just feeling very proud of myself. We can overcome, one day at a time. #MentalHealth #PanicDisorder