I was tired and sore yesterday.
I was exhausted, brain fogged, had a hot poker in my right shoulder, a fire in my left, I've been mildly nauseous for the last few days, there was a headache lurking in the depths of my brain somewhere, my lower back was aching, my neck was stiff, and I was feeling irritated and despondent.
I might be at the anger point of the grieving process right now. It is the first time since my diagnosis a few months ago that I am feeling this burning irritation. I want to shout about how unfair this is, why me, why this on top of everything else!? And heaven forbid someone should make an ignorant comment.
Today I feel less like death thanks to some Celebrex. I was more positive when the day started with a few spoons. Less positive when they were all gone by the time I had showered, got my kids ready for school, and dropped them off. I came home to log on to my laptop and start my work day and all I wanted to do was cry. Eight hours of focusing - how? (FYI, my motto is always, "how does one eat an elephant? Bite by bite.")
Not sure what this post is about except to have a little vent for what has been quite a tough week. It's Thursday today and so far I have made it through - looking forward to the weekend and just resting as much as possible.
Navigating life with chronic health issues is certainly something I am going to have to make peace with at some point. I just have to figure out how.
#Fibromyalgia #Endometriosis #ParentingWithChronicIllness #BPD #GAD #IBS #ChronicPain #Spoonie