2nd anniversary of my dog's death.
Tomorrow marks two years since the death of my border collie. Even though time has passed, I still remember the day like it was yesterday: taking them to the vet riddled with arthritis and pain and then being told the inevitable thing that there was nothing that could be done as he was very old and the best thing was to end his suffering. when it was done, at first I felt nothing but when I got home and I saw his blue lead, I broke down and let off a scream that can only be described as an agonising howl and the pain was unlike anything I have felt in years. The first few months were hard to deal with and so was the first anniversary last year. As time went on it became easier to deal with but at times I feel sudden episodes of sadness and have flashes of their face or memories of taking him for a walk. It affects my everyday life and I try my best to deal with it. I do keep in mind that I gave him a good life and did right by him in the end. Time doesn’t heal anything. It just makes it fade, but thankfully I’ve been surrounded by people who have helped ease the pain and hopefully, coming into the weekend I can continue to do so by making an effort to go out into the world and find some companionship.
Just something that I needed to get off my chest and I thank anyone who takes the time to read this can relate to it. and again, thank you for the acceptance into this community and that you all are finding your own ways of peace and meaning. 😔👍
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