Relationships

Hi, my name is Cornflowercollie13. I'm looking for
Community and support. I’m currently living with an active addiction and in an abusive marriage. Mental, emotional, verbal and at times physical but not for a while. I work as an adult entertainer from home and live in a city where I have no close friends. The only people I talk to are my online clients and my dogs and various animals that I care for. I feel myself disappearing and it scares me. I feel like I used to be a vibrant, outspoken, artistic woman and now I’m an empty shell. I would love to find people who are either in the same industry as myself. Or people who are also actively choosing to stay in an abusive relationship. Animal lovers a plus. #MightyTogether #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SubstanceUseDisorders #Trauma #PersonalityDisorders #MightyPets

Its my first day of in person work ( yesterday was officially the first day but it was all online orientation). I'm exhausted. I haven't worked in over a year and I'm so nervous for what my future holds. I haven't been sleeping well either so it only makes my anxiety worse.
I have so much going on in my head I don't know how to handle it anymore.
Any words of encouragement please
#MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #Loneliness #Relationships

hey.

i’m new here and honestly, i don’t even know how to start this.

have you ever cared about someone so much — someone you’ve never even met in real life — and it just hurts because you have no idea if they feel the same?

there’s this guy. i met him online months ago. we send each other cute messages, share songs, joke around in ways that make my heart ache in the best (and worst) way.

he once called me “precious and cute” and i literally smiled so hard it hurt… and then cried later because i didn’t know what it meant.

he’s always out with his friends, always surrounded by people — especially other guys — and i just feel... alone.

i don’t know if he talks to everyone like this or if i’m somehow different.

because if i am, maybe there’s something real here.

but if not... then what am i doing to myself?

i’ve written songs for him, shared music just hoping he’ll listen.

sometimes i post stories just for him to see.

i know it sounds like a teen movie cliché, but for me it’s so real.

and i think i’m starting to lose myself in this maybe-love, maybe-fantasy thing.

but i can’t let go.

not yet.

if anyone out there has ever felt this kind of quiet heartbreak, or just wants to talk, i’d love to hear from you.

maybe i’m not as alone in this as i think.

thanks for reading

#Love #Relationships

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