Relationships

Hello beautiful people. My therapist passed away in March and it hasn't been easy. I have another therapist, and he's great so far, but I still grieve and feel the pain of losing my previous therapist. I was in therapy with him for almost 2 years and he was in practice for almost 30 years. He helped me through some of the toughest times of my life and was there when I was building some of the best too. Around September last year, he told me that I was not neurotypical. I asked if him if that means I'm neurodivergent and if I'm on the spectrum. He said yes and that he didn't know. My professional relationship with him was so precious to me. It's been difficult because of the depth of the relationship. I've also seen other therapists for long periods of time but I realized it was different with him because he was slightly ASD (in his words), and I guess both of us being ND may have contributed to it. The neurodivergent aspect is one part of my journey but the other I'd like to ask for help with is dealing with the loss of him. I thought I'd reach out in this group and ask if anyone can relate to their therapist passing away and can provide some info on how they've managed.. TIA #Therapy #Neurodiversity

Hello, I would like to go by qemise. I'm here because I deal with rretroactive jealousy and I really want to get this out of me, but its hard too and I struggle to find the reason why. I always lie to myself saying I dont care, when in reality, all I do is care. I know how annoyed my boyfriend is whenever I speak about his past, it annoys me just as much as it annoys him and I want help with overcoming this obstacle for the better sake of my boyfriend and i's relationship.

Had a relationship breakdown earlier this year, it’s been about 6 months now and I’m struggling really bad. I can’t stop missing him, the emotional pain is terrible. I feel so low- he was everything to me. My favourite person. And he left. Why can’t I just move on? This is just not fair. I’ve tried everything. I just wish things were okay between us, because then I’d be okay. Can someone please shed some light on what to do- BPD makes everything 10x worse.

Hi, my name is RustyHam. I [M24] have had a past memory that has come back up of my older brother [M27], SAing me. At the time of the memory I was roughly 5-7 years old, but it is difficult for me to find an exact time frame, all I know is that I was too young to understand what was happening. All I recall is that I was coerced into giving him oral. I do not remember what happened before or after, all I recall is that we were in our shared bathroom, with one of us getting ready to shower.
This memory has popped up in my mind throughout the years, but I never really thought about it and assumed it was just a disturbing dream or something I had made up. Recently, I also realized that I had been SA'd in one of my past relationships, which inevitably caused me to fixate on this memory that is now haunting me. I haven't told anyone about this memory and I feel like I am losing my mind. I can't tell if it was some messed up dream or a traumatic experience that my body is trying to reject or disassociate from. For over 10 years I have had vivid, reoccurring nightmares and constantly have intense sleep sweats that drench my bed. Is this my body trying to tell me something about this experience?
My brother is also getting married at the end of this year and asked me to be a groomsman. I do love my brother and want to be apart of this special occasion, but I this memory has made me reluctant to even be apart of it. I do not plan on telling anyone in my family soon as I fear that no one would believe me or that I may be seen as crazy. Seeing pictures of him or even thinking about the memory has brought anxiety attacks and caused me to break down crying.
I am not sure how to digest this memory and how to approach it further without damaging any relationships. This memory heavily affects me but I oftentimes tell myself that I am lying, made it up, or dreamt of it. I feel like I am losing it and I fear that this may affect me in the long run. How do I begin to heal from this even though I am not sure if it happened or not?

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma