shifting

I have noticed, i change perspective and or states of mind in short periods of time. I can go from feeling paranoid and like everyone is against me, caggy and aggressive to having a superior complex, seeing others as npcs and not worth anything unless they are useful to me or there is aspects inside them I admire and want for myself. I am curious if it is related to me going from feeling helpless and less than in a sense so then I switch and get all high and mighty. Also I jump from thought to thought. After feeling better than others I then switched to wanting to understand others deeply and why they do what they do. I wonder if it is to help myself understand me or maybe I desire to feel connected to others? Or is this all some ego centric avenue?

I find that I change with every new thing that happens to me. Today, I cut/shaved my hair- feel like a different person. I have a new interest- I change and become absorbed into the interest. I like a new song- I became that. I often forget what or who I was before my new findings, this also includes people. #MentalHealth #Depression #shifting #personality #forgetting #change #Notmyself #Identity #identitydisturbance

I'm calm in the outside, but on fire on the inside. I'm full of hate for someone I've cared about for a while now. I didn't gradually hate them, it happened instantly. I've been cursing them all day, wishing evil on them. I haven't been myself in a long time, I'm normally not like this either. I'm very tired of everything and everyone. Just yesterday, I was dying to feel loved, but today I'm full of rage, I feel numb, and I don't want anything to do with love ever again. There is no in between for me. #MentalHealth #hate #Rage #shifting #EmotionalIntensity #IntenseFeelings #nomiddleground #TiredOfMyThoughts #tiredofitall