Singlemum

this photo was hours before i attempted to end my life, if the police hadnt been there minutes before i wouldnt be typing this.. people say im selfish for wanting to kill myself and leave my sons behind but they dont know what im fighting in my head everyday to stay alive. i struggle massively and feel i cant speak out without getting judge, i want to be able to wake up everyday and want to get out of bed but i dont. i would rather curl in a ball but i have to for my sons, ive been through a hella lot for my age. but i just cannot seem to get rid of these suicidal thoughts, normally i can try to work with them but this time i really cant😭.

i dont know why im posting this; i guess i just feel i can maybe say whats on my mind🤷🏻‍♀️.. this is my first ever post.

#Singlemum #Depression #sad #lost #down #Thoughts #Dead #Suicide ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

I made a list of things to do when I feel overwhelmed and the dark thoughts are too convincing. I’ll try to add more as I go along. Might type it out and print it, maybe add some pictures to colour in, help me to calm.

It’s just so hard to be present for my baby girl when everything is colliding in my head. #PTSD #CPTSD #Depression #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #Medsarentworking #Abdominaladhesions #Singlemum #PhoneAnxiety #SocialAnxiety #theblackdog