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How do you cope when those closest to you end up reaffirming everything you learnt as a child?

I was abandoned by all my adult children last November after a suicide attempt. It has reinforced all those things I learnt as a child such as everyone I love abandons me. I’m not worthy of love. I deserve to be treated like this. I am the problem.#TraumaSurvivors

My husband is leaving me for his daughter. Actually, I hit rock bottom in this insanity. I am throwing in the towel. Before I knew this was a ‘thing’, emotional incest, I started to feel and to describe my husband’s rage and defense of his daughter as that of a man defending his wife and I (the wife) feels like I am the other woman. I was losing my mind with the extreme sides of my husband.

We had an amazing textbook marriage, But he constantly trying to crowd our lives with his girls and sharing every areas of our relationship unbeknownst to me initially. One in particular. She is his goddess. The sun, moon and stars shines from her. After 2.0.0.5 years of bitter fighting and not willing to hand my life over to my husband queen/goddess. After, Months of therapy where he acted changed, 2 mental breakdown. I was in the middle of a mental breakdown and my husband thought it was funny to send a text to his emotional incest wife about me fucking up. It pushed me over the edge. Now my first suicide attempt.

There were at least 10 police, emt etc in my home to save me and my husband has not apologize. Asked how I am. Just like my first breakdown his daughters took him to the range.

God, I sure know how to pick them,

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I happened upon my session notes, one day, while looking up information on MyChart. I found the notes to inaccurately describe what I was trying to portray to my therapist. Since then, I have looked up additional notes just to see how accurate they are. I feel like my therapist may be trying to make our sessions sound more productive than they actually are. It feels very invalidating.

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I just wanted to enjoy my son's wedding. I took all the necessary steps, I crossed all the t's dotted all the I's and she / I still stole most of the the
Day from me. Why did I expect, protect, beg and expect differently 😔

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#TraumaSurvivors feeling anxious . I’ve actually enjoyed this time( one week) that he’s been gone. I’ve slept through the night for the first time in a long time. I didn’t realize how lonely and also harassed I’ve been. I wanted him to move out and even said I would help him find a place. His response was to put himself in the unit under the guise of being suicdal. I just know he would never do that or even feel that way. It’s emotional manipulation, but fortunately it’s not working. But he won’t budge. My therapist talked to me about radical acceptance. I’m going to move on in my life, doing therapy, meditating, making new friends with healthy boundaries and positive vibes. Going to pick him up now. Wish me luck.

As l read the different stories on splitting l realized that some of the issues l dealt with in my relationships may have been a direct result of the negative ways in which l looked at what was being done or said to me. In times past l wouldn't have wanted to share this because of the shame l always attach to myself when l make a mistake but not anymore. I'm owning where l have gotten wrong and at the same time affirming that l am still worthy of being loved.

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