Wonder

The universe has always amazed me. Supernovae, black holes, galaxies, nebulae - they're all chaotic, unpredictable, and yet somehow breathtakingly beautiful. I can look at cosmic chaos and see wonder.

But it'sironic, because in my own life, chaos often feels unbearable. I see beauty in space being chaotic, but when I feel chaos inside myself, I usually hate it. Living with BPD means my inner world can get so exhausting and dark, and the emotions are so heavy sometimes I don't know what to do with them.

At the same time, I know that without those deep, exhausting, dark feelings, I wouldn't have those deep, amazing, unbelievable moments of joy either. The kind Where I well up with tears of happiness - sometimes just from Seeing someone else happy. I love that I'm able to feel that happiness for others. I'm also glat that through all that chaos it has helped me feel empathy for people when they need it.

Einstein once said the most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. For me, chaos is part of that mystery, that adventure - both out in the universe and inside of me. The same way stars are born from the collapse of dying ones, some of my best, most compassionate parts of Myself have come from the hardest experiences.

I won't pretend its easy. sometimes my chaos still feels unbearable. But I've Started to realize it's also part of what makes me who I am. Maybe the chairs is what makes the joy possible. Maybe the chaos is sacared too.

What about you? Do you See beauty in your own chaos, or does it is still feel like something you want to escape?

Meg

#science #Spirituality #Philosophy #Wonder #alchemyoflife #einstein #chaosandorder #cosmicperspective

A day at the marine aquarium. Though this is from a while back. I can’t help but be in a state of wonder looking at the detail that our God put into his creatures! I’m astounded taking a close look into the eye!

#Wonder #knowledge

When I’m on the road, I sometimes imagine a car hitting me while driving and could possibly end my life. I wonder if people would actually miss me when I’m gone? Would they post about me on social media ? Would they cry at my funeral? Would they reminisce the good times with me? All I can do is wonder. #Thoughts #Wonder

This is my inspiring thought for today. It’s from my #Wonder calendar from this month. I love the book Wonder and the movie is pretty good too. It feels good to write down your own story and do your thing.