I realize as my 25 birthday is upon me that I haven’t talked to y’all in a long while. Well I fell into a very deep dark hole. I became an alcoholic. Which created problems in every aspect of my life. My psychiatrist ended up telling me that all of my mental problems were caused by my hormones and that she couldn’t help me. Nearly 2 years later, here I am, after being put on meds for my si joint, and gaining weight, and having worsening symptoms. I had multiple procedures and surgeries to get to where I am. Now I’m on medicine for my thyroid, because it isn’t functioning properly, hardly anything in my body is. I’ve received a lot of bad news, I’ve started arguments just to feel something other than being numb. I’m just tired. I’m tired of nothing working out. I thought this year was going to be different. Better. But I’m not on any meds for my mental health because they continued to worsen my hormones. And sometimes I can deal, sometimes I feel alone that I can’t. And it’s very overwhelming. I’m not even 25 yet and I have to get cancer screenings, mammograms, mris/cts on my brain/neck… I’m just tired of it all I want my life back. Sometimes I just have no energy to push on. I feel so alone. I just want someone to help me. #alone #giveup #scared #ChronicIllness #sick #AutoimmuneThyroidDisease #ThyroidDisease