appendicitis

Well I have an appendicitis. Over the past weeks my symptoms have become unbearable. I went to my (rather worthless) primary doctor on Monday, who can never seem to figure anything out or actually be proactive enough to run diagnostic tests to LOOK for what's going wrong...and she sent me home and said to wait it out. Today things escalated rapidly. I went to the fucking ER. It was awful. I'm so stressed and afraid. My blood work showed massively elevated white blood cell counts and high lactic acid levels.

I had a CT scan done. The CT revealed an appendicitis. I met with a surgeon in the ER for a consult. My appendix hasn't ruptured completely yet. So because of this godammed pandemic, they are unable to do surgery on me. They literally said that I have to wait until it does rupture to get emergency surgery. This is fucking terrifying. Apparently all surgeries are cancelled unless you're activity dying.

So they administered super duper IV antibiotics. I've never had this type of antibiotic before. My body had an anaphylactic reaction to it. I went into shock and started having grand mal seizures. They kept me under watch for six hours.

I have no words to describe how angry, alone, and suicidal I am. I am at the end of my rope dealing with this horse shit. It is one thing after another. My body is failing. I don't want this life. So this spring break I'm waiting for my appendix to burst, last spring break I was in foster care after a TBI, and the spring break before I was having brain surgery.

I need help. I need a break. And I need to get away from the agony that is my life.

#CheckInWithMe #Appendicitis #COVID19 #Surgery #Hospital #EmergencyRoom #angry #Crisis #SuicidalThoughts #ButYouDontLookSick

Afew weeks ago I had an appendicectomy. It hasn't been healing well and I lost a chunk of skin early on which left me with a big scab. It ripped off this morning. It was all loose around the edges and it came off when I was getting changed. It's all raw and bloody underneath, but also completely numb. Didn't feel a thing. So now it's dressed again and my infection risk has gone way up again. In 4 days I'm supposed to be healed enough that I can go swimming but I still can't even do my bloody job. I'm a dog groomer that can't bath a dog because of the risk of getting an infection from the dirty water.

i just want things to go back to normal

#Recovery #Appendicitis #Surgery #Healing #Work

Been out of touch for a bit. Wasn’t feeling good,mom took me to ER. The last place I wanted to go. Come to discover appendicitis, admitted right away, surgery next day. Lesson? Always listen to Mom lol funny thing was when I read about it, it’s supposed to be a bad pain. I think I live with pain so much that this one was like meh! Feeling much better & able to battle other issues in my life a little bit stronger! #ChronicPain #Anxiety #Depression