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I've as km ed for over two years now to please stop.He is hurting my son, antagonizing him and lying constantly to me.This is wrong and Im not okay.My family was is gone, done and hurt because of her animosity not mine.I turned to the women in this family, they turned on me.I did rell him the truth.He hates me.Shows me constantly and it's disturbing and wrong, worse than anything I ever did.You cannot based someone of their privacy.I do not understand and why would anyone want to hurt someone Iike this over something they never cared about to begin with.to humiliate me for what? Parade me in front of them, for what? Set me up, for what? What was the restaurant for? The studio? The Galleries, for what? It's done.I, ashamed, embarrassed to have ever met you to do these things to me , to my son, him, all the people I care for.wĥhy hurt someone who has nothing left, why.

It is, my environment and I am trying my hardest to move forward. But I recognize all the patterns. I know his game, and hers.Sad, it is a routine for him now, down to the week and is definitely, slowly killing https://me.I stay, because I have invested the last half of my https://life.I asked for time, peace and https://compassion.I was met with obstacles, devision and https://isolation.To use my weaknesses, my pain and anxiety as a reason to teach me a lesson, is non negotiable to me and I can't forgive people who do not acknowledge, anything wrong, in hurting https://me.I was supportive, kind and did show up.He, did not want me to or want to https://himself.I raised the bar and he threw it https://down.He can be alone now, without me now, how he, always preferred it, without me. I will not be a maid. The house, All his and he can keep claiming it. I'm argumentative, controlling, nagging and please demonize me all day, I expected more and it had zero to do with https://money.Keep your money.do not reach out to me again, please.

I was told today that I play the victim card. I'm learning to process fifty years of https://shit.My sisters gave me that label the first time I addressed everything.it https://stuck.Never being allowed to discuss, you get trapped once you do.
He said it's my fault, for https://isolating.And that, showed me that he does not, have the care or capacity to understand what he https://said.He repeated it, https://3x.Im https://shocked.When you have a medically induced break, you aren't going https://anywhere.And to blame the person, while they are in treatment, floors https://me.Would someone in treatment be told go into a https://bar.Or a cancer patient, it's your fault.Seriously, I need to be in a nurturing environment and not someone torturing me with indifference, in order to make me leave? His concerns are known https://now.His strategy is not wise or good for him in the long https://run.I willingly want him taken care of, always https://have.His family has convinced him, I want his $$$.What money,is my https://response.He kindly took mine,at my most vulnerable time, no questions or concerns for my https://future.He has his and will continue to because it always was his, not ours, https://his.I only worked here,room and https://board.I cook clean and make nice, but no https://ownership.None.Not by my doing and when I ask, it is half truths, defensiveness and https://distractions.I only wanted security and a home.you gave me, us, none of https://that.Five years and then, you, called it https://quits.I remember everything https://now.Everything.And you've spent years calling me crazy, unstable, argumentative for defending myself and making me question my reality.WTF, I'm not letting anyone take my life. Good people don't do that to someone. I will fix my money mistakes myself and find a stranger to advocate, for me, myself.no one, deserves what you've all done. I turned to each of you for help, actual help and, helped you before I needed it.you could have been civil, spoke to https://me.Sad and messed up to try to punish someone who was sick, over and over again, for https://years.But thats right, I'm faking the last three, no six years of my life, for https://nothingness.All for https://nothing.Thanks for the pain.

I have been recalling the beginning and I do, remember asking for time, patience and understanding, from my only girlfriend and friend. I was unpredictable, impulsive, destructive and under multiple medications. I did not want her children to see me that way.She, made the choice to not support me, turn on me.to be done, with me.
Her response was to dismiss and, attack me. I know I explained my health issues, my confusion and my history. My lowest point was met with hostility, disbelief and disregard. And the saddest part is, I knew prior, they felt animosity towards me.I knew she had already spent years trash talking me to anyone who'd listen.This is something, I am only now coming to terms with.First my own sisters, my own mother, then, my mother in law, then her.I put these women, on a fckn pedestal for years. Held them in high regard and respected them, defended them, talked them up to others. To know, I meant nothing,has caused a change, in how I view most women and I can't unsee it, now. Four years of therapist, explaining that its not me.Why should I give grace and a pass, to everyone, who trashed me, behind my back?? Why am I left holding their secrets, when they, disected mine? WHY? I lost everything, for telling my husband, the truth. He didn't care until, others cared. He hates his choices, his life, his, his, his.And blames me, my situation and my son, for everything. That is his, issue not mine to carry.Tells all but us, complains about all and will.I will say stop again and I will be made out to be the issue.My life will change when I am at peace with the actual truth. Everyone seems to expect that from me but not return the truth to me.Forcing it upon me, to figure out with crumbs, is destructive and cruel.I won't be put out or fostered, to others. I am phased out and cannot be phased back in.
I am a individual, a woman, not a fckn child or a charity case.Stop treating me like a cost, that your stuck with.Tell her, I know where to find her.I never understood why him, till I saw her for who, she truly is, and it all made sense.Yuck and throw up in my mouth type response.to judge me, from her perspective, that is what makes me giggle and realize how desperate she must be, to test me, to puposefully try to sabotage me.She will continue and time, will pay her ten fold.As it will return to all of them. The Intention and impact was hurtful, destructive and cruel. I was fighting for nothing. I know that now. I will fight for myself now. And I have no hidden agenda, everyone else seems to. I am well and I will continue, to watch the cards fall where the may. I am sad,for all of you,that felt you could not come, directly to me.

My son and husband have betrayed me beyond a couple times.And now, backtracking by munipulating and changing stories and narratives.Both trapped themselves today, outloud, setting the other up.Screwing eachother over, again.Pretending the other is unaware and in on it.Slick but stupid.The phone is only one thing.Involving him, thats saddest lesson forced on me.Im not longer holding space for anyone involved or seeking an outsider activity.They are all involved and Im alone, sick and trying, still, to fix the unfixable.It will be brought up, played and finished, by them.I will have nothing but knowing I tried everything for these two and they continue to cover the truth. No longer will I, put them first.I will treat them, how they treat me.I will finish painting and making my home, mine.no one else does any cleaning or maintaining.I am, the only one organizing, cleaning and trying to fix.I expect someone who sees the value and not only obstacles.Sad and reactive to this last game.It is ridiculous,pathetic and gross.Still.

I hadn't written in over three https://weeks.I felt https://it.Pausing was not by choice, my phone has been hacked for about two years, by my spouses family.im https://monitored.For their reputations https://safety.I never signed up for https://this.I wasn't told and thats a violation for me, https://major.All that has been implied, wrong and in https://vein.I knew and had to sit and https://watch.I will go back and find why, it is her doing, never was mine or his, all her.