Hi, my name is AutisticAdventurer 🦔. I'm here because I am really struggling with thoughts of sh. I am sh free ❤️🩹 for 96 days 🗓️ a record I haven't had in a really long time. I don't want to relaps but feel so low 📉, I don't want to talk to anyone about it or at least I am scared to. That's just why I am here. 📍
My physical health is dettoriating I can barely stand at times. I am in my exam period 📓, but don't know if I can study much longer because I feel really low and it hurts me so much. Also almost every examperiod I relaps and I am asking myself if it is still worth it? 🤷
ASD brings a lot of challenges. 🙄 I am also diagnosed with bipolar II, but think I also suffer from complex ptsd because I relive certain moments over and over. I really don't know... The weird thing is the moments I relive are most of the times the moments not of trauma that happend but about the consequences of it, like ending up in ER... 🏥
I really want to be a teacher 👩🏫, but I am in 2,5 of the 3 years study, but I don't know if I can stay because I feel really unwell.
I want to travel the world ✈️🤸🌍, saved up since I was 14, now I am 21 y/o. Right now is that my motivation to keep going. I really want to be here.
Also because I joined a scouts 🥾🧭 I have a reason not to leave my life in Belgium behind and find it hard that there are things in my life right now holding me back. There opened a new position in the group, to organize a lot etc, but that is for three years and I am only staying here for two more years. Also because of my asd I can't always handle pressure, so I don't feel I am up for it even though I really want it.
Can anyone give me some advice? 🍀
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