Bipolar 2 Disorder

I wonder if anybody on here has ever experienced something like this:

I have BPD, Bipolar II, and GAD. Life can be hard, but I've gotten a lot better with my new therapist. We've been working together for about 7 months now. She's excellent. Not to say that my previous therapist wasn't, but my current one simply clicks with me. She has a specific methodology for working with people with BPD, which is my main concern right now, and it simply works for me.

It's hard to describe, and this is the first time I am writing about it, but sometimes I feel like this sadness comes about suddenly. For example, I might be somewhere where I am having a really good time, or maybe I am doing something that I really enjoy, like practicing one of my instruments (I'm a professional musician), watching a TV show, hanging out with my family, and out of the blue, everything changes.

It comes on suddenly and without any warning. I was at an event a few Saturdays ago. It was a day-long event, and it was a lot of fun. But halfway through the day, I experienced this sudden drop in my mood. I know I have Bipolar, but it's not like it lasts a minimum of 4 days straight before it changes. Sometimes it just lasts 2-3 days. I don't know. I'm confused.

One time, I told my current therapist that my bipolar episodes do not happen suddenly, but maybe I am wrong.

I'm not sure if this is my bipolar, I don't know if this is anxiety-caused, or if anyone here has experienced something similar?

#Bipolar2 #BPD #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

I wonder if anybody on here has ever experienced something like this:

I have BPD, Bipolar II, and GAD. Life can be hard, but I've gotten a lot better with my new therapist. We've been working together for about 7 months now. She's excellent. Not to say that my previous therapist wasn't, but my current one simply clicks with me. She has a specific methodology for working with people with BPD, which is my main concern right now, and it simply works for me.

It's hard to describe, and this is the first time I am writing about it, but sometimes I feel like this sadness comes about suddenly. For example, I might be somewhere where I am having a really good time, or maybe I am doing something that I really enjoy, like practicing one of my instruments (I'm a professional musician), watching a TV show, hanging out with my family, and out of the blue, everything changes.

It comes on suddenly and without any warning. I was at an event a few Saturdays ago. It was a day-long event, and it was a lot of fun. But halfway through the day, I experienced this sudden drop in my mood. I know I have Bipolar, but it's not like it lasts a minimum of 4 days straight before it changes. Sometimes it just lasts 2-3 days. I don't know. I'm confused.

One time, I told my current therapist that my bipolar episodes do not happen suddenly, but maybe I am wrong.

I'm not sure if this is my bipolar, I don't know if this is anxiety-caused, or if anyone here has experienced something similar?

#Bipolar2 #BPD #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

I always had mental health issues, I just didn’t know it. In hindsight, I can see how I carried those illnesses since I was a young child. It’s hard for me to know exact ages but ever since I remember, I’ve always had anxiety issues.

Eleven years ago, it was like my mental health conditions exploded in my face. I started to have issues with sleep, anxiety, and dissociation. I remember that I wouldn’t be able to sleep for 4 days straight, then sleep for a couple of hours and repeat the cycle. It was hell!

In 2015, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and I believe that the following year, I was diagnosed with BPD. The Bipolar 2 diagnosis came in 2021.

Since 2014, I started to feel like my life became a living hell. A life that was beginning was suddenly and abruptly paused! I thought that this would only be temporary, that things would go back to “normal.” I was completely wrong. It’s been more than a decade and I’m still struggling.

It’s true that ever since I found my current psychiatrist, things started to look up for me. Now, I have a new therapist along with my psychiatrist and she is pretty great. I have seen a lot of progress in the last 6-7 months.

The thing is, though, that I feel like my life has been put on hold. It’s been such a long time that I no longer know how to live life, how to be on my own, how to be an adult. I feel like I’m too scared to try and live life now. It’s like I have to rebuild, start from scratch. I need to mature and I need to do it quickly and that’s a huge pressure that I have on my shoulders.

I’m not sure how to do this. I wish I could become suddenly independent, just like my life was suddenly turned upside down! Idk, it all seems so difficult. I know I shouldn’t whine about my life but I feel like it has been so unfair. I am stuck battling something I didn’t ask for. In the meantime, all my friends (the people I went to college with), they have jobs and families. They are doing something with their lives. They’re living the dream. Even my former students have jobs, are working towards a goal in life, yet here I am… stuck! I wonder when it’s going to be my turn to live life.

I always had mental health issues, I just didn’t know it. In hindsight, I can see how I carried those illnesses since I was a young child. It’s hard for me to know exact ages but ever since I remember, I’ve always had anxiety issues.

Eleven years ago, it was like my mental health conditions exploded in my face. I started to have issues with sleep, anxiety, and dissociation. I remember that I wouldn’t be able to sleep for 4 days straight, then sleep for a couple of hours and repeat the cycle. It was hell!

In 2015, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and I believe that the following year, I was diagnosed with BPD. The Bipolar 2 diagnosis came in 2021.

Since 2014, I started to feel like my life became a living hell. A life that was beginning was suddenly and abruptly paused! I thought that this would only be temporary, that things would go back to “normal.” I was completely wrong. It’s been more than a decade and I’m still struggling.

It’s true that ever since I found my current psychiatrist, things started to look up for me. Now, I have a new therapist along with my psychiatrist and she is pretty great. I have seen a lot of progress in the last 6-7 months.

The thing is, though, that I feel like my life has been put on hold. It’s been such a long time that I no longer know how to live life, how to be on my own, how to be an adult. I feel like I’m too scared to try and live life now. It’s like I have to rebuild, start from scratch. I need to mature and I need to do it quickly and that’s a huge pressure that I have on my shoulders.

I’m not sure how to do this. I wish I could become suddenly independent, just like my life was suddenly turned upside down! Idk, it all seems so difficult. I know I shouldn’t whine about my life but I feel like it has been so unfair. I am stuck battling something I didn’t ask for. In the meantime, all my friends (the people I went to college with), they have jobs and families. They are doing something with their lives. They’re living the dream. Even my former students have jobs, are working towards a goal in life, yet here I am… stuck! I wonder when it’s going to be my turn to live life.

I always had mental health issues, I just didn’t know it. In hindsight, I can see how I carried those illnesses since I was a young child. It’s hard for me to know exact ages but ever since I remember, I’ve always had anxiety issues.

Eleven years ago, it was like my mental health conditions exploded in my face. I started to have issues with sleep, anxiety, and dissociation. I remember that I wouldn’t be able to sleep for 4 days straight, then sleep for a couple of hours and repeat the cycle. It was hell!

In 2015, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and I believe that the following year, I was diagnosed with BPD. The Bipolar 2 diagnosis came in 2021.

Since 2014, I started to feel like my life became a living hell. A life that was beginning was suddenly and abruptly paused! I thought that this would only be temporary, that things would go back to “normal.” I was completely wrong. It’s been more than a decade and I’m still struggling.

It’s true that ever since I found my current psychiatrist, things started to look up for me. Now, I have a new therapist along with my psychiatrist and she is pretty great. I have seen a lot of progress in the last 6-7 months.

The thing is, though, that I feel like my life has been put on hold. It’s been such a long time that I no longer know how to live life, how to be on my own, how to be an adult. I feel like I’m too scared to try and live life now. It’s like I have to rebuild, start from scratch. I need to mature and I need to do it quickly and that’s a huge pressure that I have on my shoulders.

I’m not sure how to do this. I wish I could become suddenly independent, just like my life was suddenly turned upside down! Idk, it all seems so difficult. I know I shouldn’t whine about my life but I feel like it has been so unfair. I am stuck battling something I didn’t ask for. In the meantime, all my friends (the people I went to college with), they have jobs and families. They are doing something with their lives. They’re living the dream. Even my former students have jobs, are working towards a goal in life, yet here I am… stuck! I wonder when it’s going to be my turn to live life.

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✨️ Hello ✨️ I am your group leader. I am a Reiki Master and began learning Reiki in 2013. I have some medical background and my own personal medical history of course. I find Reiki to be very helpful especially helping to feel more balanced, grounded, and relaxed. It helps me with my stress and #energylevels #ChronicPain #Anxiety and #MentalHealth (dx with #JointHypermobilitySyndrome ( possible #EhlersDanlosSyndrome ) #PolycysticOvarySyndrome aka #pmos #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS ( technically PI-IBS ) #Anxiety #Bipolar2 and a few other joint issues). I am happy to share Reiki with others. All you have to do is ask or at least let me know you are open to receiving Reiki. I am not going to assume.
I love cosmic things: astronomy, astrology, stargazing, etc. & I love tigers, they are very special to me. I'm a big fan of cats - big and small.
I also love crystals, card readings, and aromatherapy. I enjoy movies and music. I am very creative and would like to do more art! What about YOU!? 😃
#MightyTogether