Honestly, anytime I have a full blown episode I’m always rushing to get this jacket.. Its been through so much with me over the years. Yes its ripped at some places, but Its the only piece of clothing that I will keep for the coming years. Its been with me through the rough times and its been with me through good times..
I wander these chilly streets wondering when this constant cycle will stop, but I know it never will.. Its getting in the way of my life. More than ever. They say bipolar disorder gets worse over the years.. And im starting to see it now. I feel so many emotions and yet nothing at the same time.
Thankfully I have health insurance now and Im planning to see a doctor and a therapist. I just don’t want medication that will change who I am. It might be weird to say, but I like to feel manic. I like to feel depressive. I like to feel dissociative. But at the same time I dont. Also my anxiety has been running really high & I keep getting overwhelmed with life.. #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder