bipolar disorder songs

It amazes me how easy it is for someone on the outside to take one look at me and summarize my mental illness, my experiences, my heartbreaks, my joy, without a second thought.

Friends you’ve trusted your whole life start to push away. You talk when they ask, and when it becomes too much to subject changes suddenly.

It almost feels like a curse, Bipolar. It’s a curse that keeps you bound to loneliness no matter what you do. You could be surrounded by hundreds of people that love you and feel like you were the only person in the whole world.

You’re horrible to others and know the whole time you are. You care so deeply about others but push everyone away because you don’t trust them enough not to hurt you, misunderstand you, or condemn you.

All you want to do is be like everyone else. All you want is to be able to get up in the morning, know what you want to do, and have the energy and motivation to do it. All you want is to create a home you love, one that makes you feel safe, but how can you do that when you don’t know who you’re going to be from one day to the next?

You’re frozen in time. Time doesn’t exist for us that are still struggling to find stabilization. You look in the mirror and see you’re getting older, but you feel like you’ve been standing in the same spot for as long as you can remember. You wonder how much time you have left to find a solution before you run out of it entirely.

This is an exhausting existence. Mental, physical, sexual abuse, hopelessness, loss, grief, illness, violence, heartbreak, manipulation, exploitation, misunderstood, and still somehow waking up every morning with the hope that the depression will fade and I’ll begin to be able to live my life again.

I’m sorry if you relate to any or all of this. My heart goes out to you. I’m hurting with you every moment of every day.

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“And I don’t know where I stand so I guess I’ll just fall apart” - Van Nuys, Hotel Books
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Recently, I have read the synopsis of "Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde" by Robert Louis Stevenson...and I am convinced that while it based on a particular dual personality disorder. It also works quite well with Bipolar 1 or 2. We become something we're not and we can blame a poor drug cocktail that we receive from our beloved doctors. Those drugs whether it is Lamotrigine, Lithium, Abilify, Seroquel, Trazadone, etc. These are all serums that change us into Mr. Hyde. We have then transferred our energies into this being that we would NEVER want to be and yet, we MUST force ourselves as Dr. Jekyll, to accept the consequences and own our actions which we would NEVER commit as our own selves. If there is a more evil and struggling condition in the way of emotional disorders, I am not sure which one...I can't say I'd rather have another such as PTSD, but I am more than sure that what I have is punishment enough. I am fully aware that I am NOT guilty of anything per se, to HAVE EARNED this condition...except having been born of my biological father who also had Bipolar 2 and his demons/Mr. Hyde caught up with him and did away with him on Christmas Day in 91. I do EVERYTHING I can to maintain my NEED to stay as Dr. Jekyll. My personal strategy is to go see a movie so that whatever is stewing in that brain of mine is squashed. I love movies and I work my hardest to dedicate myself to the plot and the characters , in so doing, I am force to kick out whatever was screwing me up and I throw in this new train of thought. It is a much cheaper price/sacrifice than lashing out at anyone in a 100 mile radius.

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I'm doing a presentation and I'm interested in referencing songs that are directly and overtly written about mental health issues (not just songs that allude to symptoms). Ones that come to mind are "The New Great Depression" by The Moth & The Flame and "Manic" by Coleman Hell. What others can you think of? #DepressionSongs #BipolarDisorderSongs #Songs #Music