Decision

(Photo from my recent vacation)

Having recently come to the conclusion that I cannot continue in my current #Job beyond the next 5 months, I have been stuck in swirling #Uncertainty . My job is making my mental health worse, but poor mental health makes it very difficult to look for a new job.

Last week, my therapist suggested that I consider working with a career counselor to help me work through some of my questions and challenges. I just had a free consultation call with a potential counselor, and I think I might go forward with it.

Naturally, it is even *more* expensive than my regular therapist, but she seems to have a system where she feels confident about what can be accomplished in her packages of 3 sessions or 10 sessions. I tend to have the view that my situation is just so complicated that no one could possibly help me break through all the muck and mire that quickly, but I recognize that that view may not be accurate.

I know that I need to do something different because just continuing to do the same thing has not helped me gain any forward momentum . I'm a bit afraid to spend so much money and just end up back where I started. I know part of that is the #Depression talking - "everything is bad and nothing will ever get better" - but it is a difficult mindset to overcome when trying to make a #Decision .

Have any of you ever worked with a career counselor? What was your experience like? Would you recommend it?

#Adviceplease

#Decision #destiny

“Go left! Now turn left” I turn left “WTH ARE YOU STUPID WHY DID YOU TURN LEFT WHEN YOU SHOULDVE TURNED RIGHT?!” I stutter and cry and apologize. I live with this treatment daily. I do and act like the the drawn out description of who I should be? I’m wrong. I’m criticized. I’m torn down. I get exhausted and burned out from all the repression and smiles and pretending I’m fine and I finally lose hold of my “crazy” and I’m still wrong bad no good worthless. How can you heal or even begin to try to heal in an environment like that? And that’s just one behavior I’m dealt by my “loved” ones.

“Go left! Now turn left” I turn left “WTH ARE YOU STUPID WHY DID YOU TURN LEFT WHEN YOU SHOULDVE TURNED RIGHT?!” I stutter and cry and apologize. I live with this treatment daily. I do and act like the the drawn out description of who I should be? I’m wrong. I’m criticized. I’m torn down. I get exhausted and burned out from all the repression and smiles and pretending I’m fine and I finally lose hold of my “crazy” and I’m still wrong bad no good worthless. How can you heal or even begin to try to heal in an environment like that? And that’s just one behavior I’m dealt by my “loved” ones.

“Go left! Now turn left” I turn left “WTH ARE YOU STUPID WHY DID YOU TURN LEFT WHEN YOU SHOULDVE TURNED RIGHT?!” I stutter and cry and apologize. I live with this treatment daily. I do and act like the the drawn out description of who I should be? I’m wrong. I’m criticized. I’m torn down. I get exhausted and burned out from all the repression and smiles and pretending I’m fine and I finally lose hold of my “crazy” and I’m still wrong bad no good worthless. How can you heal or even begin to try to heal in an environment like that? And that’s just one behavior I’m dealt by my “loved” ones.

#MightyQuestions #MightyThoughts
I am curious on some members views, on how they feel if addiction is a disease or if it is a choice/decision. I used to believe addiction was a disease, but after several conversations with some people I have become to believe that addiction is a choice. I would greatly appreciate it if some of the community could give some feedback on this topic.
Loving Regards,
Johnny