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    Being undiagnosed is Schrödinger's diagnosis

    I'm a physics student at the University of Cambridge and I am living with an undiagnosed illness (which I call Pete).

    For those not familiar with Schrodinger's cat, its a thought experiment used in understanding quantum mechanics. If you have a box with a cat in it and release a poison into the box that has a 50% chance of killing the cat and no way of knowing if the cat is dead without opening the box and checking then as long as the box is closed the cat is in a superposition of states where it is both dead and alive.

    Being undiagnosed is Schrödinger's diagnosis because it is both

    Curable and incurable Cancer and bengin Something serious and not Treatable and untreatable Progressive and constant That scary thing you read about and something much less sinister because you don't know which until someone actually takes the time to investigate properly and diagnose you. It's scary and it's lonely.

    #ChronicIllness #chronicallyill #physicist #Undiagnosed #fightingforanswers #fightingforadiagnosis #Gaslighting #Uncertainty #Waiting

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    Considering #Career #Counseling #MentalHealth

    (Photo from my recent vacation)

    Having recently come to the conclusion that I cannot continue in my current #Job beyond the next 5 months, I have been stuck in swirling #Uncertainty . My job is making my mental health worse, but poor mental health makes it very difficult to look for a new job.

    Last week, my therapist suggested that I consider working with a career counselor to help me work through some of my questions and challenges. I just had a free consultation call with a potential counselor, and I think I might go forward with it.

    Naturally, it is even *more* expensive than my regular therapist, but she seems to have a system where she feels confident about what can be accomplished in her packages of 3 sessions or 10 sessions. I tend to have the view that my situation is just so complicated that no one could possibly help me break through all the muck and mire that quickly, but I recognize that that view may not be accurate.

    I know that I need to do something different because just continuing to do the same thing has not helped me gain any forward momentum . I'm a bit afraid to spend so much money and just end up back where I started. I know part of that is the #Depression talking - "everything is bad and nothing will ever get better" - but it is a difficult mindset to overcome when trying to make a #Decision .

    Have any of you ever worked with a career counselor? What was your experience like? Would you recommend it?


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    Hi! So, I’m looking for a way to incorporate using this site in my life. I recently left therapy(about 2 weeks ago) because both my therapist and I thought it was time to try to be out in the world, but before I left I said I'd try to find support somewhere, so here I am. I'm not good in group settings because I get overwhelmed easily, and it's a struggle to post anything, but I'm giving this a try. Right now, I’d like to find some way of feeling less alone in this world, but I struggle connecting with anyone. I have no friends(aside from my pet bunny), and I left my family over 10 years ago; even when I was with them I felt alone. I’m not sure I’ve ever connected with anyone my entire life, and I’m not sure how I’m going to get there or how long it will take for me to get there. I could continue, but I’m going to end with a question for all of you.

    I’ll need to find what works best for me, but I’m open to suggestions of how you use this site for support, connection, just feeling better, or any other way you use this site?

    #alone #Depression #MentalHealth #Uncertainty #Anxiety

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    we're on the right path

    (( going the right way

    even when it twists and turns

    ((when it seems to sway

    All is Well :)

    #Anxiety #direction #Uncertainty #alliswell


    How do cope with uncertainty? What can provide you solace during the uncertainty? #CopingTips #Anxiety #IntrusiveThoughts #Uncertainty

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    Patience while enduring the daily physical toll of Mental Illness is Not Easy

    Who agrees? Feel free to share your thoughts if you'd like!

    #physicalsymptoms #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #panic #Comorbidities #Uncertainty

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    ❤️🌞 The sun beams her rays on you. You are not alone, you are never alone 🌞❤️
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    Image description Rebecca is sitting in the field wearing her rainbow coat. Her back is to the camera. She is facing the sun. . #CheckInWithMe #Disability #Loneliness #Uncertainty

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    Election Anxiety is Real But Doesn’t Have To Be Crippling #Anxiety

    The next few days or weeks may be challenging on several fronts for ALL of us. You - and we together - are capable of meeting challenges and solving problems.
    #Anxiety #worry #Worrying #Uncertainty #Fear #certainty #strong

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    What are some plans you’ve had to put on hold due to your health or uncertainty? #CheckInWithMe

    Whether you’re a planner or more spontaneous (or somewhere in between), what is something you have had to put on hold due to your health or uncertainty? Maybe it was something “small” like a day with friends or a shopping trip. Or maybe it was something “bigger” like a vacation, going to college or starting a new job.

    I’ve made my fair share of cancelations due to my health. I have had to cancel a lot of plans because I could shake my anxiety or I was dealing with a chronic pain flare-up wasn’t subsiding any time soon.

    And then there are the times I’ve canceled because of uncertainty. Either I didn’t have all the details of the plan and I felt too nervous to ask for them, or I didn’t have a good gut feeling about it. I’ve even had to put plans on hold, as many others have as well, due to the uncertainty of the pandemic.

    I would love if you’d share with me some plans that you’ve had to put on hold due to your health or some uncertainty you’ve faced in the comments below.

    #MentalHealth #ChronicIllness #Parenting #RareDisease #Disability #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Autism #Trauma #PTSD #TraumaSurvivors #ChronicPain #Migraine #AutoimmuneDisease #Undiagnosed #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #Plans #52SmallThings #DistractMe #Uncertainty


    #numb #BingeEating #compulsivebehaviors ##Uncertainty

    I can't describe what I feel since months ago. Only the occasional crying that let out because its better to express and feel something. I binge eat and I compulsively cut the skin of my feet and eat it (embarrassing 😳). I think this is probably on the way of me knowing what I really feel and what I really want. And the added watching videos on youtube and watching movies and series on Netflix. I wonder 🤔 why I have to do something all the time. I can't sit still without distracting myself. The psychometric test will take tome to be administered; until the end of September to take it and 3 months more for the results. It's not a simple process. They will be analyzing the possibility of ADHD inattentive type and aspects of my personality.

    It's a constant battle in my mind to stop what I am doing even if its boring and I don't love it to get things done. I am a procrastinating all the time. I can't do things and reward myself afterwards. Set goals or see in the future something for me. I just am in the present and looking inmediate rewards with the above activities and with buying material things. I am stuck. Could be that I don't want to face the future just like I did as a child when I didn't want to grow up. I have childhood trauma to work on. Also had #SelectiveMutism and #SocialAnxiety which was never addressed. I can speak in past about this matter, but I am not sure I am over it. Yes probably the #SelectiveMutism because I can speak in all situations except not that good in job interviews or authority figures like a boss or supervisor. Looks more like social anxiety and insecurity. There's a lot I don't like about jobs, and I don't want to work for money. I want meaning or at least peace of mind because I don't do well in stressful job environments or high demanding positions or working with various task at the same time. Also getting organized under these circumstances is very hard. Just wanted to express myself and read about people that understand or have similar experiences.