They won't stop#CPTSD #Dissociative
I have pleaded, cried,bargained and screamed.Ive begged.I am being gaslit,munipulated and lied to daily by my spouse.Im not doing well and he won't stop.I have spent two years trying to navigate a new way of life and I'm being Set up to be phased out in order for him not to take care of me.He has made it clear he will not be taking care of me,does not want to be trustee or conservator of my care.What the hell did I get married for,seriously! I would have taken care of him, I did take care of him, for years.I am not staying now.Everytime I have clarity, I see the big picture.I am not getting better physically and emotionally, this home is killing me.He took my joy, out of here.He sabotaged everything I love and my animals, all of it,out of resentment and spite.To hurt me, to push me further from peace of mind as possible.He ruined it, for nothing.A few extra laughs with his Boys.His boys, who have never been a part of our life before I got sick.
You can't get back from that,ecspecially when only one person can admit fault.I will fine, I have before and I will again.I have more trust in a stranger than my own and that was his plan.Sad.All he had to do was talk, be honest with me and discuss our situation.He brought everything and everyone into it.Isolation and munipulation, I really don't know, anyone anymore.My bad.Not again, never, again.