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    I am stronger than #Suicide


    So here I am
    Around people
    And I can’t breathe

    Hundreds around me
    And I’m alone

    Isn’t it funny
    That you always feel
    The most isolated
    When you are around others

    So here I am

    As others around me breathe
    I too, ask
    Why cant I swim

    But I can swim
    Just your words drag me down
    My injuries sting
    Like weights on my skin yearning for the inky depths

    As the voices in my head get stronger
    And stronger

    But I’m too scared to drown so I keep fighting

    Created 21/9/2018
    #Depression  #Anxiety #Suicide #MightyPoets #MentalHealth #Selfharm#fighter  #SuicidalThoughts #Poetry #Drownoutthevoices

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    I’ve overcome some major hurdles lately. I’m coping better and slowly emerging from “my cave” to engage with the world again. It’s still a HUGE struggle, but I’m having a few more victories.

    Yesterday, my son took the day off work to help me leave the house, God bless him. I had to really push through the pain, fatigue, fear, anxiety, distractions and tears, but I finally got outside the front door, even if it was technically just before midnight (11:52pm)!!!! I was able to drive my car for the first time in nearly a year and go grocery shopping at the supermarket.

    Earlier, I made urgent calls to my bank, and several others, to sort out a mix up — a huge thing for someone with phone anxiety!!!

    These are all good things, right?

    So why is it that in the back of my head, I have this “voice” saying... “Wait for it, your bubble is going to burst... This won’t last. You’re going to crash and burn, just wait and see.” 👺👹

    Does anyone know what I’m talking about?

    Please help me drown out this voice. I want to focus on, and celebrate, my victories — big and small. Having good days doesn’t mean I won’t have bad days in the future. It doesn’t mean I won’t lose a battle here and there. But I don’t want to waste me time and precious energy worrying about those negatives and miss out on today’s positives.