Eating Disorders

I've been off sugar for two days. I know we don’t really need it, right? But then why does it feel like I do? I’m still getting sugar from fruits and using whey protein for smoothies, but I miss sugary snacks so much. To fill the void, I’ve been eating more carbs—pasta, bread—while trying to stay within my calorie limit and add more protein to feel full. But honestly? I just want ice cream or chocolate milk. Brigadeiro. Condensed milk. Even plain Nutella—which isn’t even my favorite sweet, but right now... I’d go crazy for it.

And the worst part? Besides trying to control this compulsion and addiction, I’m also on the verge of being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. It feels inevitable. I knew I was heading in this direction, but not so soon, at 33 years old.

Diabetes runs in my family—both grandmothers, and an uncle. On top of that, I have PCOS, which worsens insulin resistance. And then there’s all the mental health stuff, which led me to rely on sugar and carbs as coping mechanisms over the years. Now, the damage is catching up to me... and the more I can’t have sugar, the more I crave it.

OMG, what do I do? ANyone else feels like this?

#Anxiety #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #Diabetes #DiabetesType2 #ADHD #EatingDisorder

I've been off sugar for two days. I know we don’t really need it, right? But then why does it feel like I do? I’m still getting sugar from fruits and using whey protein for smoothies, but I miss sugary snacks so much. To fill the void, I’ve been eating more carbs—pasta, bread—while trying to stay within my calorie limit and add more protein to feel full. But honestly? I just want ice cream or chocolate milk. Brigadeiro. Condensed milk. Even plain Nutella—which isn’t even my favorite sweet, but right now... I’d go crazy for it.

And the worst part? Besides trying to control this compulsion and addiction, I’m also on the verge of being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. It feels inevitable. I knew I was heading in this direction, but not so soon, at 33 years old.

Diabetes runs in my family—both grandmothers, and an uncle. On top of that, I have PCOS, which worsens insulin resistance. And then there’s all the mental health stuff, which led me to rely on sugar and carbs as coping mechanisms over the years. Now, the damage is catching up to me... and the more I can’t have sugar, the more I crave it.

OMG, what do I do? ANyone else feels like this?

#Anxiety #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #Diabetes #DiabetesType2 #ADHD #EatingDisorder

I struggle with serious executive dysfunction. It paralyzes me, and then guilt sets in. That guilt turns into anxiety and a kind of depression. The frustrating part? I have all the resources and skills to organize my life—my job, house chores, motherhood, everything. But I just can’t. Why?

Taking my ADHD medication helps, but without it, I feel like a nobody. There’s this gap—before it kicks in in the morning and after it wears off at the end of the day—where I feel completely stuck. And the only thing that pulls me out of procrastination is eating. But then guilt creeps in, and it snowballs: anxiety → depressive state → more eating → weight gain → … and the cycle repeats. I feel trapped in it. I can do things, but I can’t. It makes me feel ungrateful. And unuseful. And an impostor.

#ADHD #EatingDisorder #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Caregiving #ImposterSyndrome