Exhaused

This has been such a long week and it’s only halfway over! I’ve got college stuff and shopping tomorrow and then Friday I have a doctors appointment and then babysitting!! I’ve been running on about three spoons a day for well over a week now! I must say, it’s getting pretty exhausting both physically and mentally. I did spend a short time today painting which always helps my mentality, but MAN THIS IS GETTING OLD... #MitochondrialDisease #RareDiseases #InvisibleIllness #Exhaused #SpoonTheory #Spoonie #needsleep #nausea

Up down, happy sad roller coaster want to talk about it no no I don't.. Don't know what to say about it or how to go about it. Tired of thinking about it, What is wrong with me? I want help but won't get it... then Exhausted sleep for a week straight could sleep longer. force myself to get out of bed, I just wanna go close my eyes a couple more minutes. Exhausted...... #Exhaused #confused #BipolarDiorder #Depression

I am so exhausted and have been for the last few weeks. Every movement and thought takes so much energy. I have so much that needs to be done at home. But when I get home from work all I want to do is crawl into bed and close my heavy eyes. #Fibromyalgia #Exhaused

Today all I’ve been able to do is clean my room. And I’m exhausted. Mentally. Physically. This fucking sucks. I want to sleep. But I want to visit with my family. But not when I feel like crap. But then they will wonder and I’ll get the irritating looks and wonderings and whispers between them. I hate it. Please fucking address me.
#Depression #Exhaused
#Suicide #CheckInWithMe

I’ve had this ringing in my ears since I was 11. I’m 42 now. The past few years it’s gradually gotten worse. A lot worse. Last year, I stayed at a friend’s house. Woke up at around 5am by the sound of the shower. I thought ”Why the hell is he taking a shower at 5am?” Turns out he was sleeping. No shower. I walked around his place, trying to locate the sound. After a short while I realized in panic that the sound was coming from inside my head. Broke down, crying. Scared.
Thankfully, it went back to ”normal”. Just slightly louder.
And it’s getting louder. And louder.

Today is one of those days when my brain won’t stop running in circles. I can’t stop thinking about everything and it’s exhausting. How do I make it stop? #Exhaused

The title pretty much sums it up.
Lying in bed, not wanting to do anything. I must be very fun to live with. This sucks.
Thoughts are heading towards the ”S”-word. Don’t want to, but I can’t seem to stop. I know my head is playing tricks on me, but it doesn’t make it feel less real. Trapped. Closed off. No exit.