findingmypurpose

I just want to find myself #findingmypurpose

first time seeing a therapist in my life

so... last week I felt so, down that I wanted to die. I put the gun to my head, right after texting my goodbyes. As, my phone rang I dropped the gun. my life from where I'm standing is horrible. I think I've been battling with myself for years, last night I was about to post here but, then I realized I was writing a book. So, I continued to write and I answered a few questions about myself. I think I'll continue to write a book the book but, back to the subject. This all happened last Monday. I have an appointment tomorrow at 3pm. I made the appointment not knowing my job was going to ask us to work Monday through Saturday. I know I'm in a bind at work but, I can't miss this appointment, I'm going ....in the morning I will try for an earlier appointment but,if there is none I'm choosing myself over that selfish job. I don't know what to expect and ive never reached out to strangers even posting this is new for me. But, I'm ready to live in my truth. I'm tried of having a drink to cover my feelings, or cry alone. I'm ready to accept my past failures and current mistakes. And hopefully gain a real smile inside. I know this post may have sounded all over the place but, that's exactly how my mind feel. For the past year or so, I find myself yelling" I hate my life" more than anything. I KNOW I NEED HELP! hopefully this is the first step.
#peace #findingmypurpose #IDEA #Depression #Therapy

Really struggling with my work/life balance. After two life altering car accidents and too many surgeries to count in the last 3 years I’m stuck on what the future looks like for work and how I can excel at work without neglecting my mental and physical health all at the same time. So frustrated!!!!!!!
#CheckInWithMe #worklifebalance #MentalHealth #ChronicPain #findingmypurpose