I honestly never panic over snowstorms.. Or when Swine flu hit..or the regular flu. THIS is different. I am 2 months post op for a chronic illness. I am laid off. I have a moody 13 year old who needs to be homeschooled until God knows when. My husbands hours are pointless at work. I had been home post op for 6 weeks prior to covid. Now I need to be home. I go to the store in gloves..mask..and alcohol spray. I feel like the movie outbreak is actually happening . on top of this two separate friends lost children this week one 3..to cancer. One 11 days to a 💙defect. We can't even mourn them as a "community". Services will be held "at some point". My daughter should be making her confirmation..postponed. She should be going to DC..uncertain. She should walk to get her 8th grade diploma..I pray. She is my only child. These are milestones! They may not happen. I'm more hurt than her. So needless to say..anxiety is just unruly. I just feel helpless. I can only disinfect my house so much. Before OCD. Kicks in. Laundry is cleaned. I feel like life may never be normal again. And even my normal life is stressful. I need an outlet...besides journaling. This may be it. Thanks for listening.
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