Maniac

Some start their anxiety symptoms since the first week of their life. Chances are they also show symptoms of Bipolar 1 and psychosis since the childhood.

These people live in a different world, and to add gas to the fire, they are not able to describe their world to us. They have never experienced the world as we know. Simply, they do not know that our-version of the world "exists".

Finally, we - being the majority - declare them as "troubled" or "maniac" or to be polite we call them different.

In an effort to speak on their behalf, these are my words speaking for the agony they experience since their birth.

A battlefield in your crib…. Only for you
Scared screams of death …. Only for you
For no reason under siege …. Only for you
Yes, you are in it alone.

A blade chases you into a twister ….Only for you
Faint in the twister hulky arms ….. Only for you
Sucked into the twister endless gullet, …… Only for you
Yes, you are in it alone

A killer clown smirks his pointy teeth … Only at you
Ropes your body with His snake arms …. Only for you
Finally the nightmare ends because …. died you
“Nooooo..!”
Your eyes pant in anger.

A new day crawls away for bed time to sneak in.
Sleep replays it all-over-again ….. Only for you
#Bipolar1 #Mania #Maniac #Bipolar schiZoaffective disorder #Psychosis #BipolarDepression

#BipolarDisorder

#SchizoaffectiveDisorder #BipolarDisorder #Maniac #Schizophrenia #SchizophreniformDisorder

Some start their anxiety symptoms since the first week of their life. Like my little one, chances are they also show symptoms of Bipolar 1 and psychosis since the childhood.

These people live in a different world, and to add gas to the fire, they are not able to describe their world to us. They have never experienced the world as we know. Simply, they do not know that our-version of the world "exists".

Finally, we - being the majority - declare them as "troubled" or "maniac" or to be polite we call them different.

In an effort to tell my son that I understand. These words speak for the agony he experiences since his birth.

A battlefield in your crib…. Only for you
Scared screams of death …. Only for you
For no reason under siege …. Only for you
Yes, you are in it alone.

A blade chases you into a twister ….Only for you
Faints in the twister hulky arms ….. Only for you
Sucks you into his endless gullet, …… Only for you
Yes, you are in it alone

A killer clown smirks his pointy teeth … Only at you
Ropes your body with His snake arms …. Only for you
Finally the nightmare ends because …. died you
“Nooooo!”, your opened eyes pant in anger.

A new day crawls away for bed time to sneak in.
Sleep rewinds it all-over-again ….. Only for you

People always bully me with their minds subconsciously even those that I’m close to. I guess it’s because I’m so nice and I guess people think I’m entitled all the time. I don’t know what it is. Makes me sad #Depression #Anxiety #Maniac #Paranoid #medicalanxiety I think about the things they said like for example, “You’re just lazy.” And it really makes me sad people think I’m lazy when I’m fucking hurting. Like, why do people think they can talk about me and literally make me feel like shit, and not know that I have anxiety and what I’m going through. Even fucking family. I hate them.

#BipolarDisorder

I had a hard time focusing today when I was bagging groceries at work. My head felt like it was going 90 miles per hour.