I think I will always be kinda fucked up and crazy and have a shit ton of suicidal relapses where I lash out
Recovery is a funny thing. It is never a straight path
I have had my good moments and crashed into some really shitty ones. And then the balance in between. I already had a very suicidal low where I sent messages (goodbye messages) to many people
Obviously I am still here but I feel bad about it
I feel I am a burden on those who see me at my monstrous
I almost feel like saving people from myself
I'd rather them not deal with a crazy person and that my absence would be better and healthier for them
I'm not good to be around lol
The Power of Love
#salonpas right in the middle of my forehead, on the sides and on the back of the neck, as well as behind the ears, helps with my migraines!
Honestly, in My Past Relationship.. My Ex was da Krazy One.. I Was 100% Emotionally Numb.. So I Was Inconsiderate & Dismissive & Abrasive.. Just Cold Towards Him.
Now, The Script Has Switched. Only, My 'Love' Actually Handled ME Calm & Considerately.. When I'd Be Outbursting in Anger or Tears.. I Understand Every Bit of What My Ex Was Goin Thru. What I Was Puttin Him Thru. But Since My Emotional Barrier Crumbled.. I Have Empathy. & I Imagine What it Feel Like if My Love Said/ Did The Same Shit to Me & it Hurts WORSE Knowing that I Inflicted that Pain+ More to a Sweet, Innocent, Miserable Mind💔😭
Christmas (anxtity or not?