Crazy

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Is it the most wonderful time of the year? For many, it is not. I do not feel so chipper, even as I embrace my home decorations that I just placed out for #Christmas . I am planning on going to a few more #Holiday events, including some #HolidayShopping too.

Theme parks here are buzzing, and my husband and I are lucky to have bought tickets to Mickey's Very Merry Christmas party in Magic Kingdom Disney World here in Florida.

But.. I cannot help but think of my Dad. Call me #Crazy but when you lose someone that you've known your whole life and it's the first Christmas without him... It hurts so bad.

My #BipolarDisorder symptoms have not been the best either. I feel like I am on velosicoaster at Islands of Adventure and I don't like roller coasters! I am up and down, and upside down, straight up, and left and right. I feel like I am a #yoyo from the 1990s. I think it's the days being shorter, and the fact my Dad isn't here, that my symptoms are more #difficult to deal with.

How is your #holidayseason kicking off so far?

Hello... I am new here... KrazeeBootiful80... That's ME!
I'm 41 and was misdiagnosed at 17 as manic depressive bipolar. At 30 I was rediagnosed with BPD... My daddy diagnosed me at 15 when he would call me Katie Kaboom from the cartoons we watched as kids, Tiny Toons if I am not mistaken. ("We're tiny, we're tooney, we're all a little looney...") I am so thankful for this site/app!!! Thanks so much to the creators!!!! God bless you!!! #Crazy #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPDDiagnosis #ThankYou #feelalone

How do I put into words what it is that I am feeling right now? I am confused and wishing I could be just neutral.

I went shopping a little while ago, and on my way home my husband called me. He told me I should not have went shopping and spent money. I bought him some things for father's day and when I mentioned I got him some things, he became upset. It is because I don't have a job. He was upset with me about us having one income and going shopping.

He told me to not put up roadblocks into me finding a job, or doing what it is that I want to do. Professionalism is not something that comes easy for me, and with my mental health issues it's harder than that of a person without them. It is not an excuse to stay where I am, but it does not make it as easy as someone else's level of difficulty. I know everyone experiences difficulties. I swear it will be OK. I just have to find something that I love to do and go for it.

Today is a day of mixed emotions. It's driving me nuts... But it's something that I have to deal with. I am hoping for a better tomorrow since today is a Mix of a Mess and a Blessing.

Take Care.

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Isn't it crazy how crazy people call you and make you look crazy... And at some point YOU even believe it for a moment!? They may even drive you to a point where you act "crazy", just so they can say "see, this is what I mean"!
Isn't it crazy that we're willing to give up our sanity, just to please the crazy ones and even hope to be loved by them. We try everything possible to make it work, wondering why it's not working and we we truly believe there is something wrong with US... We really believe we are not lovable... All because the crazy person made us feel so!

#Crazy #narcissist #Sociopath #psychopath #ChronicPain

Just one thing this crazy migraine girl does to manage her migraines #Crazy migraine girl #manage my migraine #hemiplegic migraine #First post #tip

Okay, I’ve genuinely felt liberated ever since I just stopped caring so much about the word “Crazy”. It is somehow a bad thing to be, like a terrible quality or trait in a person and yet every DJ you’ll ever hear of will scream “LET’S GO CRAZY!” as if it’s just the rave version of a yoga instructor talking to you about reaching nirvana- as if it is awesome and a cool thing.

My personal example: I have snacks and some bubbles in my purse, even when I’m not with my nephews or planning on being around kids. I skip down the street and blow bubbles and I don’t care if someone thinks that I’m crazy because of a few reasons:

1.) They now have a fun occurrence to mention when someone asks about their day. (“Yeah this girl complimented my jacket and then blew bubbles and skipped to the Starbucks a few blocks down, crazy!”)

2.)If that makes my day better? Awesome. I’m not hurting anyone, I’m not getting hurt because I took those five letters and decided that it’s fine- crazy is crazy, who cares! My ex is calling me crazy? In what way? Am I “Mental”?! Because people say that about funny stuff too! The people you think are crazy at work still get the job done… don’t they? Why not shift gears and have some crazy time (safely!).

3.) I have a mental illness, if this is how I want to act, how I want to feel seen or heard or just a total 180° for the day as DBT or just because I need a little while to not be me… it’s nobody else’s business.

Be weird, be crazy, be unique, take power away from words thrown at you like you’re a teenager saying “I know you are but what am I?”

Enjoy the power of taking back those labels…if people are gonna label you- make it worth their while and get a slice of the fun out of it.

I have #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder and as for my thoughts on the label of being crazy to those who stigmatize- that’s my philosophy, and it’s helped me through traumas and dramas and everything I have to put up with. So reclaim your crazy! You can be boring later. #Crazy #words #Empowerment #reclaim
#YouAreOkay