I think I invest in my friends so much because I don’t want to confront the hollowness I feel. If I’m giving my self away I don’t have to worry about not feeling nor the paranoia that keeps me up at night. However my friends don’t need me no ones in touch anymore and my life has gone silent. Who do I invest myself into so I can pretend that I’m real. If I can’t give myself away then I can’t ignore my distorted reflection.