Are there any particular cultural or ethnic views regarding mental health that you have experienced or seen in your community? How do you guys think we can contribute to ending these (often hurtful) stigmas surrounding mental health?
After being out of work since January, I am finally returning to work off medical leave (and two months shut down due to Covid-19). It's an amazing leap back into a routine bigger than the one that I have now. I will be returning to work in a new location. Since I work merchandise (retail) in a theme park, it allows me to fill a spot in a new place where I am needed rather than being positioned in one store with no opportunity for change.
#TimeToChange things up a bit. I am #Excitedslashterrified for all the things that may happen. But I can definitely feel confident knowing I have a safe place to share my journey as I have been from the start of it. Even though I have #BipolarDisorder and #AnxietyDisorder , I can still continue to do what I need to do to move forward. I also know to give myself a break when I need it.
I lost my intermittent FMLA coverage for the time being, but in about 30 to 40 days, I am eligible to receive my intermittent FMLA coverage again. This will protect me from the attendance points system and job loss for when things get rough. I say, wish me luck!
Al at the liquor store
Him: how you doin buddy. (I have since gotten to call him a little more than an acquaintance)
Me: oh just livin the dream.
Al: "You know dreams can be nightmares too."
Did that not hit me like a ton of bricks. This man sees my pain. He knows I'm suffering. And he cares. Sometimes the most random of people in life can affect us.
Currently in the process of reinventing myself! Over the last few days, I've been struggling a little bit. Intrusive thoughts, feeling down, struggling to do the simplest of things. Today I decided to fight back! Got showered, dressed and went for a walk! That's about as productive as I have been over the last few days!
So you's know how I'm doing, what about yourselves? Are you okay?
I've been trying to get this out for days.
I snapped. 26yrs of trying to be everything my family wanted, trying to be the good little Catholic school girl, being the one to take the higher road, being the one to apologize for everything, being the one to just let things roll off my shoulders. Being the one that walks away from the fight instead of standing my ground. Doing everything to make sure no ones feelings are hurt and respecting everyone older then me. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm tired, exhausted. I feel everything that's been building up on my shoulders. Sugar coating things so no one, even my family, would know just how much I struggle and what I go through everyday.
I feel almost like I can breath, if it wasn't for my mom. She takes every word and twists it on me. And when I demand apologizes now, she doesn't really apologize. All I want is respect. And I'm tired of the game, so I'm dropping my facade. I'm going to just... Live. Let things happen instead of trying to be someone, something, i cant accomplish. #LearnToLetGo #Depression #Freedome #living #notperfect #seeking #TimeToChange #change #isitokay #scared #Respect #different