relationship OCD

OCD, a demon in my head,
Compelling me to check and dread.
Washing hands till they are raw,
Counting steps until I'm in awe.

It's a constant battle in my mind,
A never-ending loop that's unkind.
A prisoner to routines I must repeat,
Afraid of the consequences I might meet.

An obsession that's irrational,
A compulsion that's uncontrollable.
It's a vicious cycle that never ends,
A cycle that my mind defends.

But I won't let it consume me,
I'll fight back until I'm free.
I'll face my fears with all my might,
And conquer OCD, the demon in my sight.

So I'll take a deep breath and take a step,
And leave the OCD, my constant fret.
I'll break free from its vicious hold,
And live a life that's brave and bold.
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My major issue is trust and fear of being in a relationship #PTSD #AnxietyAttack #Depression #RelationshipOCD

Me and my ex have been broken up for about 8 months now. He’s came back to me 5 times telling me he misses me and wants me back. Each time I gently say no because I know it’s for the best. I’ve already blocked him, but the guilt is actually eating me alive. He’s made me feel horrible for not taking him back, even though I know if I continued the #Relationships it wouldn’t be good in the long run. The guilt is terrible right now and I feel like a horrible person. #RelationshipOCD #Guilt #Ex #Breakups

I keep going through this toxic cycle in dating. I become interested in someone that I think I know and trust after being friends for at least a year. We start talking and they genuinely seem interested, then they drop off the face of the planet. This just happened today and I don't know how to move on quickly because my OCD keeps awful thoughts running through my head. I feel like I did something wrong and that I will never find someone that truly loves me. I think I'm over them until a few days later something happens where I think we could make it work. How do I totally let go?

Why am I still anxious and sad after having phone and text conversations with my SO where nothing negative or relationship-ending is even talked about? I'm so scared she'll see ugliness inside.

If my husband and I ever get in a big argument, afterward I always question whether or not I love him. Surely if I love him, I would be angry at him all the time? He is such a good, loving, patient person.

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