Suicidal OCD

OCD, a demon in my head,
Compelling me to check and dread.
Washing hands till they are raw,
Counting steps until I'm in awe.

It's a constant battle in my mind,
A never-ending loop that's unkind.
A prisoner to routines I must repeat,
Afraid of the consequences I might meet.

An obsession that's irrational,
A compulsion that's uncontrollable.
It's a vicious cycle that never ends,
A cycle that my mind defends.

But I won't let it consume me,
I'll fight back until I'm free.
I'll face my fears with all my might,
And conquer OCD, the demon in my sight.

So I'll take a deep breath and take a step,
And leave the OCD, my constant fret.
I'll break free from its vicious hold,
And live a life that's brave and bold.
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• Society still holds a warped perception of OCD, diminishing and devaluing those who suffer from it.

• I experienced obsessive thoughts involving sexual orientation and potential harm to self and others.

• Underwent CBT ERP therapy and ACT before finding Emma Garrick, the 'anxiety whisperer', who saved my life

• Psilocybin (found in magic mushrooms) is being trialled as an alternative treatment for OCD patients.

• I aim to deliver a TEDx Talk to raise awareness about the condition with insufficient research funding/coverage, about OCD

• Recovery from OCD is possible but not easy or linear.

I’m really struggling. I’m so burnt out at my current job and every time I try to talk to my mom who’s apart of my support team keeps shutting me down. I’ve had a number of very positive interviews lately but have been super discouraged due to being shut down repeatedly.

A little backstory. I’ve been a custodian/janitor since college. It’s actually how I was able to afford school, and then due to the pandemic I just kept finding decent paying positions in this field. However, in my most recent job I’ve had nothing but entitled people who just treat us like maids. There is a difference between a custodian and a maid believe it or not and due to this school districts attitude towards the cleaning staff I’ve reached my limit with this position and honestly just wanna start over someplace new that has nothing, and I mean nothing, to do with cleaning. I’ve also been given the smallest area of all of my coworkers so I’m constantly finishing my tasks early and have lots of downtime, despite constantly asking for more tasks or even slowing down. I’ve been pushed to my physical limit and have honestly contemplated suicide due to the lack of care in this job. They also continue to belittle us and take things away.

However all but my mom has been supportive of this self discovery. She just goes on and on about insurance. I understand and know I can’t just up and quite my job. Loads of people search for new opportunities while employed. I also really wanna go back to school for art therapy since I truthfully believe I wasn’t put on this earth to just clean but do something more meaningful with the talent I’ve been given.

Thanks for reading and letting me vent my frustration out.

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Currently in an inpatient facility because I can't tell what's what. Has anybody struggled with #SuicidalOCD and #BipolarDisorder ? I find it difficult to differentiate between what's intrusive thoughts and what's suicidal thoughts. Has anyone successfully managed to recognize what's what and been able to move forward? I'm starting ERP soon and hope that maybe that will at least point me in the right direction.

Straight up not having a good time today, and it's really frustrating because I don't know why I'm not having a good time. Is it my OCD? Is it my bipolar? Am I just tired? Is it depression? Is it the meds? Is it a combination of those things? It's infuriating to be in this constant state of despair without any understanding of why. #SuicidalOCD #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety

does anyone else have #obsessivethoughts about incidents of injustice? my own thoughts are on a constant loop where all I think about is the most recent incident of injustice that I’ve heard of (usually related to violence against women). i then spend my whole day/night in a state of intense misery, panic, and hopelessness, especially because a) i keep imagining what the affected person must be going through, and b) i think it’s only a matter of time before something horrible happens to me or my loved ones.

All of this makes me wish I didn’t exist. Can anyone help? :( i hate feeling like this..... and nor can I think of a way to control it, because it’s not like injustice is going to ‘stop’ anytime soon #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #SuicidalOCD #Depression #hopeless

Or feels like can't take it anymore. Maybe your answers can help someone to find some ways to get out of that endless loop of pain and suffering for few moments so that they start to think more clearly and doesn't harm themselves.

I personally like to listen to music or watch comedy series or if I feel too much depressed and suicidal then I try to find some ways to get sleep because I always feel good after that. It gives me enough time to think straight and find some other ways to deal with my mental illnesses.
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