I write as a way to express https://myself.I do not have anyone to talk to on a regular https://basis.Ive been told, I like to hear my own voice, that one hurt. I have my art, writing,my son, my pets and small https://goals.I do not have friends anymore. When your health flips, your mind goes whppidy doo, https://too.Then your mental health becomes, top priority and it is not easy, at https://all.There is no faking https://it.I realized, a few years ago, I had less than a https://handful.I depended too much on my spouse,one friend,who actually didnt even like me and a https://frenemy.I do consider, a group of women, I shared a classroom with,my lead teachers, my https://friends.All of our lives, are busy, but that bond,will never sever for https://me.I have had enough, of
Relatives who are nice to my face but gossip when I https://left.I found, a majority of people in my world, did that, to https://everyone.Certain ones, have spent yheir entire lives spreading a narrative.So, I removed myself. I only became more aggressive and outside my character.
I cannot grow when all around me stays, as https://is.I cannot be,the only one looking for growth, accountability and change, to only be met with stonewalling and https://defensiveness.To expect someone to have a expiration date, to their own discovery, is wrong.in two months, you must be https://healed.Are you serious!
Not knowing the layers of trauma, a person has been through,is why, you don't play judge and Jury, to someone elses experience.
You sit with them, learn, at their pace, what is unraveling and https://why.Not set up to destruct to https://rebuild.That is playing with an order, already set, that noone but that individual, can https://dismantle.You are doing a disservice to your loved one, if you think, you know best.you only know, your perception, not theirs.
If You, will not, by choice,communicate, answer openly, or share insightful thoughts, engage and be vulnerable,I do not want to be around you.
If you, chastise,shame and belittle me, for my past, to https://others.I do not want you,in my life or around me or mine.You're toxic and talk poisons, not support.
I want open minded,pure heart,self aware, no shame and no more $$ transactional relationships.
If you give me a gift, do not hold it over me, later, to get something you https://want.I do not keep score with kindness.
I am done with petty jaded gossip,enabling meanness and https://ugliness.And if Im a bitch for it, please, call me a https://bitch.My boundaries, have turned me into the https://asshole.I understand this.
I am bullying the https://bully.Im sick of watching people get away with mocking, belittling and denying someone elses struggles and https://experience.Who does that?
Projecting your inadequacy on to me, is weak and goes unwarranted.
I am good alone, when the company, you keep, stabs its own on the regular.
Sometimes loyalty protects those for shame and for history sake, rather true character. I will find out more as the weeks go https://on.I will keep writing, resting and building. All I can https://do.I will not be forced to "heal" at anyone, elses https://pace.When you delay the process,hiding truths, you compound the fall. And I wont apologize for being transparent, because I was.
I will not pander, to hiding parts of myself, for a couple people to feel comfortable with their own https://issues.Stay in your own lane, even when invited.
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