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Hi there my name is Armando Gutiérrez. I've had this app for a long time but have been terrified about posting anything.
I have had my battles with mental health pretty much my whole life I've always felt out of place I don't even know where to begin to get the help I need I only have medi-cal my girlfriend and autistic daughter and aspergian autistic step son r staying with mt in law's in a very difficult situation.
My battles have been with insomnia, anxiety & depression I feel like I was undiagnosed autistic growing up personal relationships and family relationships have always been very difficult for me but let me loose on a job site for cabinets are involved and I am a completely different person,
subsequently I tried to self medicate stuff i am not proud of I need directions and not sure what else I've been on antidepressants off and on for a while I went cold turkey about 4 weeks ago and now on just diabetes high blood pressure cholesterol medication with melatonin tossed in to help me sleep. When I can or wear myself out

This is basically my story, and it was difficult, but after 10 years of breaking free from enmeshment. I had to learn to get my own mind, live my life for me, and know no one else. Now my parents are no longer my biological parents, but now they are my stepparents; they lost that right emotionally years ago. #Abuse #CPTSD #BPD #PTSD #Enmeshment #MentalHealth

Today the Church celebrates the Feast of St. Bartholomew, also known as Nathanael. He was one of Christ’s Twelve Apostles and walked with Jesus during His three-year ministry as a friend and devoted disciple.

Bartholomew was open to seeking truth. When Philip invited him to meet Jesus, he asked, “Can anything good come from Nazareth?” Yet he set his rash judgment aside and allowed Philip to lead him to Jesus.

He was honest. Jesus revealed this virtue at once, calling him an Israelite with no guile in him. He asked Jesus, “How do you know me?” He learned that Jesus had seen him sitting under a fig tree before Philip called him. This response, rich in mystery and meaning not revealed in Scripture, convinced him that Jesus was the promised Messiah.

He had deep faith, and his open heart was ready to receive Truth. After Jesus revealed the “fig tree moment” to Bartholomew, he believed and professed Jesus as the Son of God and the King of Israel. Jesus told Bartholomew he would see greater things, and he did. He preached, healed the sick, cast out demons, and brought many souls to Christ.

Like St. Bartholomew, may we seek a relationship with Jesus that is open, honest, and deep.

I spent all day with horrible tummy pain and GI distress. I took 2 tramadol and 2 antidiarrheals and within an hour my pain went down from 9 to 7. After another 2 hours my pain was mostly gone. So I figured that was a good enough time to order us some special ice cream treatos.
I got her Jeni's brand lemon blueberry parfait flavor ice cream. For myself I got Afters brand Ube brownie flavor. Then I got us a 3rd pint to share. It's called midnight caramel river. It's vanilla ice cream with big rivers of fudge and salted caramel.
I feel much better now.
#Relationships #icecreamtreats

Tĥe latest post of @thomas_of_copenhagen made me think of my relationship with psychiatrists.
Since I know about my real diagnosis, which is CPTSD, I've been skipping countless psychiatrist's appointments.
I'm not brave enough to end it and find myself a medical, trauma informed professional. Don't know where to start searching....

Any advice or experience?