Relationships

Hi I just prayed to a lady I met online , I am not sure what lead me to it aside from sadness that she has made a life while we chatted and no longer needs me to chat which all it was but it was every night for 2 years before it slowed down then a few times a week for 3 more years I thought we were going to met an have a child because she asked if I was interested and I was , but two weeks ago I found out she had a child while we were chatting around the two year mark when the chatting slowed down . I today told her I was going to start talking to other people because she seems to busy and don’t seem into me and like an hour later she posted a video having sex asking how’s the camera angle look on this . Well I told her it looked really good to be with her . And now I’m hurt that the video was a response to my remark of going to start talking to others . I also got to mention that when she asked if I wanted a child o got happy and told her about the trauma in my child hood and it reminded me of things that caused what I think was hyper sexuality and I started to talk about sex and that’s when things went wrong with our chat I just didn’t know she went to do it instead of talk to me about it . I’m so hurt that I did that and idk what to do now . And so a while ago I texted her a prayer 🙏 me praying to her explaining and asking for forgiveness for asking about sex when we chatted because I feel it’s why she went to go do that . I M not sure if all this makes sense but I’m Sorry I regret ruining what she was after with me . I’m emotionally hurt at the moment and idk how to deal with it much less what to do ? Some came here to nark on my stupidity that made me remember because I was happy and comfortable telling her about it so we could know each other it royally failed an I lost her . Am I apologize about the bad punctuation I’m currently studying for a ged and well I’m learning that
Can you help ? Do you know any thoughts words that might help me understand so I can let it go ? I already lost her I just don’t want to stay feeling like I’m missing the love & Heart she made me feel . This is hurtful for me . And I forgot to mention that when I think of sex it catches my attention so I forget about the stuff that hurts me and I think it’s why I did that because I told her everything pretty much and I remembered it all talking about it so I think the hyper sexless me hiding an trying to forget all that stuff I talked about that stayed fresh in my mind after that it ruined me. God I’m so sorry I feel Regret that I told her . #Trauma #PTSD #Depression #PTSD #Sadness #Prayer #disappointment #ADHD #Advice #relationship

Hi I just prayed to a lady I met online , I am not sure what lead me to it aside from sadness that she has made a life while we chatted and no longer needs me to chat which all it was but it was every night for 2 years before it slowed down then a few times a week for 3 more years I thought we were going to met an have a child because she asked if I was interested and I was , but two weeks ago I found out she had a child while we were chatting around the two year mark when the chatting slowed down . I today told her I was going to start talking to other people because she seems to busy and don’t seem into me and like an hour later she posted a video having sex asking how’s the camera angle look on this . Well I told her it looked really good to be with her . And now I’m hurt that the video was a response to my remark of going to start talking to others . I also got to mention that when she asked if I wanted a child o got happy and told her about the trauma in my child hood and it reminded me of things that caused what I think was hyper sexuality and I started to talk about sex and that’s when things went wrong with our chat I just didn’t know she went to do it instead of talk to me about it . I’m so hurt that I did that and idk what to do now . And so a while ago I texted her a prayer 🙏 me praying to her explaining and asking for forgiveness for asking about sex when we chatted because I feel it’s why she went to go do that . I M not sure if all this makes sense but I’m Sorry I regret ruining what she was after with me . I’m emotionally hurt at the moment and idk how to deal with it much less what to do ? Some came here to nark on my stupidity that made me remember because I was happy and comfortable telling her about it so we could know each other it royally failed an I lost her . Am I apologize about the bad punctuation I’m currently studying for a ged and well I’m learning that
Can you help ? Do you know any thoughts words that might help me understand so I can let it go ? I already lost her I just don’t want to stay feeling like I’m missing the love & Heart she made me feel . This is hurtful for me . And I forgot to mention that when I think of sex it catches my attention so I forget about the stuff that hurts me and I think it’s why I did that because I told her everything pretty much and I remembered it all talking about it so I think the hyper sexless me hiding an trying to forget all that stuff I talked about that stayed fresh in my mind after that it ruined me. God I’m so sorry I feel Regret that I told her . #Trauma #PTSD #Depression #PTSD #Sadness #Prayer #disappointment #ADHD #Advice #relationship

This is my first post, so I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this, but figured I would give it a shot. I’m a 43yr old man from TX, married 11 years and have been diagnosed with ADHD, depression and anxiety for the majority of my adult life. I’m in weekly therapy and on various medications for the above mentioned issues. My wife and I have been struggling on and off throughout our relationship with various issues and recently I have been told that I have been psychologically abusing her. Specifically during our fights I fall into the habit of defensiveness and gaslighting her. Being labeled an abuser is a tough pill to swallow and in no way shape or form is my intention to do this. My gaslighting results in an extremely volatile response from her and it is getting harder and harder to come back from these giant blow ups. Being labeled an abused also plays into the shame issues that I have which I know can be exacerbated by ADHD. I guess I am just looking for support, perspective, advice etc. it’s a weird feeling and is something that I will be addressing with my therapist in depth, but really just looking for thoughts or tools and techniques to address this. #Abuse #MentalHealth

I’ve have had the symptoms of chronic fatigue for years and was just recently diagnosed. I teach middle school and it’s killing me. It drains every bit of my energy but teaching is my passion and I never want to give it up. But what I do need is something better than 400 cups of coffee to keep my energy up. Any over the counter suggestions that have worked for you? I get advertised tons of them but I don’t trust their “miracle cure” I’d love some feed back on what some of you might take to help with the fatigue and mental cloudiness. Coming straight home from work and getting bed isn’t helping with the relationships with my husband. He is so kind and excepting of my limitations but I want to spend more time with him and my other family. I want a work life balance but right now it’s all work and then collapse as soon as I get home. Please any suggestion might help. #ChronicFatigue #ChronicEpsteinBarrVirus #Fibromyalgia #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #ChronicPain #CheckInWithMe

50 Ways to build Self-Esteem
1 Say daily affirmations to remind yourself of your strengths, awesomeness, & worthiness
2 Learn & practice ways to create calm & peace within mindful breathing is a great start
3 Ask for help & support. No one can go it alone
4 Form connections & relationships with caring adults
5 Laugh-play-have fun-get silly
6 Surround yourself with supportive friends who treat you the way you want to be treated
7 Eat healthy food
8 Remind yourself that no one is perfect
9 Help others
10 Look in the mirror & tell yourself "I Love You"
11 Embrace & accept all of you---this includes your imperfections & vulnerabilities
12 Set boundaries (what are you ok & not ok with) & stick with it. Know when to say "no thank you".....resist peer pressure
13 Create-build-cook-bake-garden-do art
14 Drink water
15 Forgive others & yourself. Remember we are all human & all make mistakes
16 Complete chores, assignments & other responsibilities you have been putting off
17 Give yourself a hug
18 Do random acts of kindness
19 Talk about your feelings with someone you trust
20 Speak your truth. Say what you want, need, & hope for.
21 Use good posture. Stand (or sit) tall as you are
22 Avoid comparing yourself to others
23 Identify the things you can & cannot control. Focus your energy on the things you can change
24 Respect other people's differences. When we show respect for others we are also showing respect for ourselves
25 Read for fun. Read for relaxation. Read for opening your life to possibilities. Read for you.
26 Remind yourself that you can do tough things
27 Practice gratitude. Give thanks for at least 3 things everyday
28 Complete your school assignments, even when you don't want to (because it's "too boring" or "doesn't matter" or "too hard") Feeling good can be found in getting things done
29 Turn off screens. Minimize time spent on social media. Do not base your self worth on the click of a "like"
30 Choose optimism. Look for the brighter side of things & see the cup as half full
31 When things don't go your way or the unexpected happens, get back up & try a different approach
32 Get moving & exercise daily. Your body will thank you by releasing natural feel-good chemicals
33 Follow your curiosities & learn, try, or create something new
34 Reflect on what is important to you & what you value. Then make choices that are in alignment
35 Learn how to resolve conflict peacefully. Use I statements & if you need help doing such ask for help
36 Practice healthy ways to cope with stress
37 Remind yourself that your bravery is stronger than your fear
38 Join an after school club or sports team. Try a new hobby
39 Set goals for yourself & work toward them, step by step
40 Treat yourself with kindness & compassion---even & especially when life gets hard
41 Trust yourself
42 Do the next right thing
43 Remind yourself that the images you see on the media, magazine covers, movies, etc.----are edited & photoshopped. Don't compare yourself to what you see in the media
44 Practice daily hygiene. Bathe regularly, brush & floss your teeth, trim your nails, wash your hands etc.
45 Make a list of your strengths & achievements & hopes
46 Be your own best friend
47 See mistakes as opportunities to learn, grow, & get second chances
48 When someone gives you a compliment say thank you
49 Do more of what helps you to step into your power & feel good about yourself
50 Tell the truth, be honest, even when it's hard to do

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