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#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression

Sometimes, it feels as though there's a perpetual rain cloud hovering just above my head, its relentless downpour soaking me to the bone while the rest of the world basks in the warmth of the sun's rays. It's a stark contrast, this dichotomy between the brightness of others' lives and the darkness that shrouds my own. Each droplet that falls feels like a weight pressing down on my shoulders, dragging me further into the depths of despair.

In the midst of this tempest, I find myself grappling with the tumultuous whirlwind of emotions that accompany borderline personality disorder. It's a constant battle against the storm within, a relentless onslaught of intense feelings that threaten to engulf me at any moment. The sadness, the despair, the overwhelming sense of emptiness - they swirl around me, threatening to consume me whole.

I long for respite from this endless deluge, to find a glimmer of hope amidst the darkness that surrounds me. I yearn for the strength to weather this storm of sadness, to emerge on the other side stronger and more resilient than before. But sometimes, it feels as though the clouds will never part, as though I'm doomed to be trapped in this perpetual state of despair forever.

Yet, even in the midst of my darkest moments, I hold onto a flicker of hope - a belief that somewhere, somehow, there is a path to healing, a way to overcome the overwhelming weight of my emotions. I reach out, desperate for someone to help guide me through the storm, to offer a hand to hold onto in the darkness.

So I plead with the universe, with anyone who will listen - help me overcome this storm of sadness. Help me find the strength to navigate the turbulent seas of my mind, to find peace amidst the chaos, and to emerge on the other side whole once more.

(When someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD) experiences sadness, it often feels like more than just an emotional pang—it's like a dagger piercing the heart, a deep and profound ache that reverberates throughout the entire being. This heightened sensitivity to emotions is a hallmark of BPD, making even seemingly minor setbacks or disappointments feel overwhelmingly painful.

The intensity of the sadness experienced by those with BPD can be attributed to several factors. Firstly, individuals with BPD often have difficulty regulating their emotions, leading to heightened emotional responses to even minor stimuli. What might be a fleeting moment of sadness for others can become an all-encompassing experience for someone with BPD, magnified by their struggle to manage and process emotions effectively. Additionally, individuals with BPD often experience pervasive feelings of emptiness and instability in their sense of self, which can exacerbate the impact of sadness. When already grappling with feelings of insecurity and uncertainty, the onset of sadness can feel like yet another blow to their fragile sense of identity, intensifying the emotional turmoil they experience. Moreover, the interpersonal difficulties commonly associated with BPD can further amplify the pain of sadness. Individuals with BPD may have tumultuous relationships characterized by fears of abandonment and rejection, which can heighten their sensitivity to perceived slights or rejections, exacerbating feelings of sadness and despair. In essence, the experience of sadness for someone with BPD is not just a fleeting emotion—it's a profound and overwhelming sensation that cuts to the core of their being. It's like navigating a labyrinth of emotions, where each twist and turn brings them closer to the heart of their pain. Yet, despite the intensity of their sadness, there is hope for healing and recovery through therapy, support, and self-care strategies tailored to their unique needs.)

Hi Everyone! This is my first time posting. I was seeking out a group like this because I need to be able to talk to people that understand what I'm going through.

I've been doing really well for a while, I started working finally after being on disability for 10 years, I'm taking care of 2 kids on my own and getting by, And I've been single since late July which is the longest I've ever been single for (I usually only last a month or two before I hook on to someone new)

So I was chugging along doing my thing and coping really well. And then I met someone this December. Long story short we were in talking/hooking up stages for 3-4 months and had talked a little about how he felt he needed more time before getting into a relationship. This combined with him living an hour away and being a horrible texter and a couple other things he did that were toxic really started triggering my abandonment trauma and now I'm finding myself falling into a Borderline episode. I'm healed enough that I'm able to see now what I'm doing that's unhealthy and where it's coming from, but not healed enough to stop myself from doing it. It's like I'm watching a movie and I'm saying No! Stop! don't do that! to myself but I'm still doing the things. I'm just really frustrated with myself and could really use some support. I'm really trying my hardest and doing my best to use my skills and I know I'm doing better than I used to but I want to be better so badly.

Thanks for letting me vent! Any feedback is welcome

Hi, my name is Anaconda33. I'm here because I'm tired of the stigma applied to the society that don't understand that we're like any other person and we have a disease that effects our brain. and should just as acceptable as someone who has diabetes or heart disease. To be honest, there have been so many times that wished I wasn't born this way and work so hard sometimes every day, but I was, and I really wish people were more understanding, If you don't take your medication and don't see a therapist- I don't think that's very smart, but I have lived with bi polar for 43 years now and I'm more than willing to help others out. To listen to what they have to say, and offer my advise.

Also, I have volunteered for NAMI, (National Alliance for Mental Illinois--for those who are unfamiliar with this wonderful non-profit organization who has many people, for several years) so I do have a lot of knowledge about mental illness. I have my good days and bad days, like every else. So I would also love to hear from others what their tips for dealing with relationships, and learning how to step back from a situation and think before I speak, catastrophic thinking (that's a big one for me) lol! and other things as they come up.

But after all the therapy I've had, books and other materials I have read, I do have a lot of understanding of mental illness to share. My friends reach out to me because they know how much I want to help and often refer to me as "their therapist". I like to talk a lot too, as you can see! Take care all! And be well.

#MightyTogether #BipolarDisorder