Schizoaffective Disorder

I've got an appointment at noon for my next invega injection. It's definitely time. My depression and anxiety are so awful. I'm also going to pick up a script that my psych doctor wrote for me on Monday. The pharmacy is in the same building. I asked him for something as needed for anxiety and the best he could offer was propranolol. I've been on it before but don't know why I stopped. I guess we'll figure it out. Anywho

My scalp on top of my head has a few really painful scabs. I had pauley look at it last night and she was like whoa. I've been scratching my scalp but I didn't think I scratched it where the scabs are.

In other news... I'm going to an event on the 19th that I'm very excited about. There is a local art school/studio. They have 4 floors of space for students. They're doing an open house on the 19th and serving free wine and pizza. They have a sculpting studio with a kiln! I've been trying to find somewhere I can do some sculpting. This might be just what I need.

#MentalHealth #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Psoriasis

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#BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #Bipolar #MentalHealth #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #NarcissisticPersonalityDisorder

How do we tell the difference between delusions and reality? Are all auditory hallucinations delusional or is it possible to communicate in the same way? I am so lost and feel as though i am being watched and judged and even though as others can hear me and see what I am doing? Has anybody else experienced this? Are all of what we hear delusion when it is not said out loud? Or can it come out of us in other forms such as a thoguht boardcasting and then someone subconsciously responds? Where do we draw the line? I am so lost. Please someone help me understand better...intuition or delusions?

#SchizoaffectiveDisorder #thoughtbroadcasting #Delusions

I have horrible tummy pain. It's mostly gas pain. My tummy sure likes to toot its own horn.

My back is trashed. I can't get comfortable on the couch. I keep shifting but everything hurts.

My hips keep popping. Especially my right hip.

My eyes just hurt. I told pauley and she said "would it get better if you wore your glasses?" I had to explain it's not a vision issue. It's misalignment of my eyes. The only way to fix it is surgery. She doesn't understand. I showed her how my eyes just shift back and forth.

I feel like nobody is taking it seriously when I say I'm scared. I've gone through so much big scary stuff and I survived. It's just assumed I'm superman and I'm strong enough to get through this eye problem. But I'm terrified. I'm more scared than I was when I had my back surgery.

I need a friend who kidnaps me for coffee and going to pet stores to play with the fuzzy babies. That would really help me feel better.

#Anxiety #Depression #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ChronicPain #BackPain #FemoralAcetabularImpingement

I sm struggling to stay positive but yet I carry-on #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

Hello, I am really struggling right now as I go through a med change to find the correct medication that works for me. I feel as though I have a bully that constantly judges me before I can even digest or process or even think of the thought I have just had. I feel helpless and I hear this bully in real life talking to strangers and family about me? But I am told these are delusions..yet how can they be delusions when they are so loud and in your face? Has anybody else struggled with symptoms like these when going through a medication change? #PTSD #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Anxiety #Medicationchange