Schizoaffective Disorder

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    What is something in your life that turned out better or worse than you thought it would?

    <p>What is something in your life that turned out better or worse than you thought it would?</p>
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    It's Okay to Be Weird

    So I have schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia plus bipolar). I had been thinking maybe I can't make friend because of that. But I had the thought laying in bed just now that maybe I'm just weird and that's okay. I struggle in social situations, and I tend to put people off. I've felt a lot of loneliness because of it and I've had very low self-esteem and a lot of shame. I get flashbacks to embarrassing things I've said and done a lot, and I just thought maybe I'm odd and it's not because I'm out of my mind or something. I am pretty socially awkward and dorky, and I'm that person at the party that tries to make friends and butts in with a weird comment then avoids eye contact and makes a weird face and everybody just stares at me wishing I'd go away. I just realized I'm probably not a piece of trash, I'm just a weird person and socially awkward and it's okay to be different. I'm not the type of nerd that's actually cool and likes science or video games but is socially fine. I'm like really just socially handicapped. I told myself I love you as I was thinking, and it was so healing. I think we are way too hard on ourselves. I have tried to fit in so hard and I just can't. But I have a small circle of people that accept me, and I'm okay with that. Just wanted to hop on here and write about it so I remember it, and hopefully it helps someone else too.

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    How do I accept a schizoaffective diagnosis?

    I feel like the world is dictating what I should believe in and without my thoughts being considered. In this case I'm made to accept this diagnosis after years of differing diagnoses which I did speak up about; I feel I can't say anymore because a small part of me does believe it. #Psychosis #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia

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    How do you cope with loneliness?

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    My Experience With the 'Walking Corpse' Delusion, Cotard's Syndrome

    I was always kind of interested in psychology and psychiatry, so, in my teenage years, I would check these videos and articles with lists of “bizarre,” “worse” and “scary” psychiatric disorders you could get. Of course, most of it was about psychosis. That’s why, when I was first diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, I was pretty scared. Even more so when my doctor told me I was experiencing Cotard’s syndrome, or Cotard’s delusion. It was one of the scariest and most bizarre disorders in many lists I had checked. Maybe that’s why I was first in denial. Maybe it was just because of the nature of my illness, it’s hard to tell. But the truth is that it took a while to accept I had experienced what many would call “the walking corpse syndrome.” It began with a feeling in my stomach and a smell, like I had eaten something rotten. Then, it spread to my abdomen, and I believed I could feel the movement of my bowels, a tingling beneath my skin. It was all rotten, that was my conclusion. The smell only got worse. I had been depressed, and didn’t leave my bed often. Soon, all of my muscles were melting and decaying. I barely spoke. I feared other people would notice the rotten smell. This made everything worse. Nothing was worth it, because I was already decaying. I was already dead. Cotard is experienced by some people with schizophrenia spectrum illnesses and psychotic depression, but the stigma around it, and psychosis in general, prevents us from talking about it. Psychosis is not a rare condition, but all the stories I had heard about it prevented me from identifying with that. You are not a zombie if you experience Cotard. And, most importantly, you are not alone. Antipsychotics and therapy helped me overcome it, in a few months. And then, I could understand how much that reflected my depressed humor, how it was a way of my mind to deal with all those thoughts and feelings of death, typical of depression. My journey with schizoaffective disorder is far from its end, and I am lucky I didn’t let that delusion convince me otherwise.

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    I supposedly have schizoaffective disorder but I have some objections...

    I don't believe that I have the illness at all or anything else along that spectrum. I'm stuck taking meds that I'd say have rendered me an addict to those meds. I feel like I'm pretty healthy mentally and physically (I don't smoke and I rarely drink.) I'm stuck in a limbo and I don't know how to get out of it. #MentalHealth #Psychosis #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #Depression

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    Write an encouraging message to someone who may be struggling with their depression right now.

    <p>Write an encouraging message to someone who may be struggling with their <a href="https://themighty.com/topic/depression/?label=depression" class="tm-embed-link  tm-autolink health-map" data-id="5b23ce7600553f33fe991123" data-name="depression" title="depression" target="_blank">depression</a> right now.</p>
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    I'm new here!

    Hi, my name is Pampampam1992. I'm here because I suffer every moment of every day from the worse mental illnesses symptoms that I've ever heard of.. the list of symptoms is excessive.

    #MightyTogether #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

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    Who, what, or where do you get the most support for your depression?

    <p>Who, what, or where do you get the most support for your depression?</p>
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    My little pillow thief😅❤

    <p>My little pillow thief😅❤</p>
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