Schizoaffective Disorder

Hi, my name is Jenkorwitz. I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, borderline personality disorder, ptsd, anxiety disorder, depression, panic attacks, adhd, chronic migraines, psychogenic non-epileptic seizures, ataxia, and more.

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Hey guys, I don’t think this will get lots of attention, but I wanted to share my story of an experience I faced yesterday.

I’d like to share an experience I recently had at a local restaurant where I was mocked and insulted by the owner and her friend. They called me “weird” and “creepy,” claiming I “intimidate locals” because I walk around town. The truth is, I can’t drive due to my disability and medication—walking is how I stay independent.

They also accused me of not paying for food, even though I do most of the time, or bring friends/family who order. Others in the community do the same or even keep unpaid tabs—but I’m the one singled out. I’m on the autism spectrum and live with multiple disabilities.

I believe this treatment was not only hurtful, but a clear example of ableism. I’m hoping to raise awareness and start a broader conversation about how businesses treat neurodivergent and disabled people. I’d be grateful if you could help share my story or guide me to the right place to tell it.

Thank you for your time and advocacy.
For context, the restaurant is called “The Dale” in Mountain Dale, NY. I have schizophrenia, epilepsy, Asperger’s disorder, and a essential tremor disorder which makes it hard for me to walk, do things independently, and makes me act quiet or very talkative in certain circumstances. I do not have a record of any violence, I just take lots of medications so sometimes I stare off into space or look grimaced.

#Ableism #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Bipolar1 #EssentialTremor #PTSD #AspergersSyndrome #AutismSpectrumDisorder #AutismSpectrum #MightyMoment

Not sure if anyone will find this interesting, but I sometimes have moments of lucidity into what it’s like living with schizoaffective disorder. I’m not up to date on the latest research, but from my experience, I believe the "split" in schizophrenia is actually a survival or coping mechanism in response to extreme duress.

When I’m not split from myself, I’m much more sensitive to pain. I notice how my skin can feel like it’s burning, and how each passing moment carries a suffocating gravity with it. It’s difficult to sit with these sensations, but meditation has helped me find ways to channel and understand the pain and discomfort. In a lot of ways, it’s helping me come back to myself — one little step at a time. Acknowledging and understanding why the pain is there, and then integrating it into my life, rather than numbing it out or splitting away from it. It’s agony sometimes, but it’s worth it to feel anything again.

I think the disorganized thinking often seen in schizophrenia is a symptom of that split. When you create a second self that’s numb to what your authentic self is experiencing, you lose your true anchor. It becomes easy to get caught up in the whirls and eddies of other people’s consciousness and motives, without realizing you’ve become completely detached from your own values. (This is actually what my children’s book was about.)

When the second self gets corrupted, it’s understandable that the personality loses its integrity and becomes fragmented and disorganized.

Those of us with schizoaffective disorder are a small subset of the population — but in some ways, I think this happens to everyone, just to different degrees. I’m grateful I’m making progress in navigating this disease. If sharing this helps someone else who’s struggling, even better.#SchizophreniaSpectrumPsychoticDisorders #schizoaffective #Schizophrenia

I've got an appointment at noon for my next invega injection. It's definitely time. My depression and anxiety are so awful. I'm also going to pick up a script that my psych doctor wrote for me on Monday. The pharmacy is in the same building. I asked him for something as needed for anxiety and the best he could offer was propranolol. I've been on it before but don't know why I stopped. I guess we'll figure it out. Anywho

My scalp on top of my head has a few really painful scabs. I had pauley look at it last night and she was like whoa. I've been scratching my scalp but I didn't think I scratched it where the scabs are.

In other news... I'm going to an event on the 19th that I'm very excited about. There is a local art school/studio. They have 4 floors of space for students. They're doing an open house on the 19th and serving free wine and pizza. They have a sculpting studio with a kiln! I've been trying to find somewhere I can do some sculpting. This might be just what I need.

#MentalHealth #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Psoriasis

Maybe there’s anger, pain, or just a hole where you wanted that connection. It’s okay to feel those things, but holding onto it only weighs you down. This space is all about letting it out, letting it go, and finding some peace. You’ve got nothing but support here—we’re here to listen and lift you up. 💛✨

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