As I slept 20+ hours a day I wondered "Why aren't I getting better?" Thinking sleep, my escape from reality was helping. For weeks I expected some miracle to happen, that I would wake up healed one day. That didn't happen. And nothing changed. And nothing changed. And I kept wondering "Why aren't I better yet?"
Frustrated I rested, and rested and rested some more and still nothing happened. Until one day I decided to do something different. From that day forwards I have made a few little changes and I'm noticing week by week, things are improving. When I look back from here I just can't believe how long I waited for something to change. When it was me who needed to make that change.
So here I am at the end of my 1st week (3 half days)back at work feeling greatful. Greatful that all those weeks ago I decided to do something different. Greatful that I was brave for 5 minutes and walked through the door of Unmasked peer support group in Halifax. Greatful for the amazing people I've met there who have helped me week after week and who celebrate my wins with me and help me through my lows. Just greatful.
Change can be scary but it's essential and it isn't always comfortable but it will be worth it.
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