Crushed by a week of illness
On the first day I had a hacking cough but other wise was fine. Day two I staggered out of bed and felt foul (was sick in the middle of the night and sick on my return from the first dog walk). My perception of the outside world was limited, my balance was bad and I was irritable. Today I am still a bit irritable but my perception of the world is almost back to normal. One symptom I didn't have till today was juddering after I carried out any task requiring physical effort
Also when I haul my myself up from a seated position, I can feel my entire torso reacting to it like I've got a bag on my legs and I am leaning forward over it. Another symptom is my heart beating ten to the dozen, every time I carry out some task. Stiff neck (me and my wife both noticed this at roughly the same time)
I also have a bad taste in my mouth every morning. Going to bed I am aware a rasping in my throat.like something is stuck there (one guy with asthma on top of this illness, spent four days in hospital). I have left side sensitivity on my face, which reminds me of my years of migraines, which also occurred via my left hemisphere. After each plateau stage is reached, you are still knackered because of each battle to reach your optimal state, as it takes it out of you
It also hurts my ribs now when I cough. Like with migraine attacks light is too bright, sounds too loud, smells and tastes too strong and touch too intrusive. The thing is did I miss some of this because my mind was knocked out by the disease?
I have also noticed that every time I get ill nowadays, it kick starts previous conditions. This time it caused my dodgy knee acting up again and I had an arthritis attack in my left hand (index finger curled over and stuck like that for a few minutes). My left foot is crippling me too. An old injury when I tried to break an ironwood branch (it didn't break but a bone in my foot might have).
It could be Covid 19 or flu. When it first arrived in Britain we weren't told, so I thought I would travel on the London underground to get my sleeper train to Scotland. On the start of the journey I walked across London to get to the station I needed for Norfolk. Pity I hadn't done that on the return trip. I discovered that I had picked it up, when I stumbled upon a reference to statistical analysis, which said a sixth of people who got it suffered from stomach upset and that was me.
Old age doesn't come alone as they say in Scotland meaning whatever you could have got when younger and could shrug off, you can't now you are older
Whether your illness is mental or physical both are compromised by your condition. You only get control back in your life, when you get to the end of the dis-ease. Until then no insight or brakes can slow it down or make sense of it except as a process you are going through
'Life can only be lived forward (experienced) but understand backwards (re-membered)’ as Soren Kierkegaard, the Swedish philosopher said. I was too busy earlier living the illness to gain any insight or control over it, now I can see as I recover what it consisted of. This is probably true of all illness, physical or psychological