#Chro

Another morning waking up in debilitating pain forced to take pain meds if I want to walk today. I've been at this for so long I can't remember what a normal life looks like a day when I didn't have to take meds or be able to walk with out full leg braces. I'm 58 had seven spine fusions and at the beginning of the year diagnosed with a rare muscular dystrophy which is taking out all my muscle slowly. I write these posts because I have no one to talk to and unfortunately there is nobody on the muscular dystrophy forum and I am frustrated because there is no cure or even treatment to slow it down. I don't think it's all dismal I find happiness when I can and let my brain be distracted from the pain by healthy conversation or doing what I can do gardening with my mom.#Anxiety ##Chro nicpain#RareDisease #MuscularDystrophy #DegenerativeDiscDisease #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Disability #OCD #PeripheralNeuropathy #alldynia #hyperalsesia #MDD

Before I got clean and sober 2 years ago I never liked to listen to music. Music was the enemy for me. It was painful how it brought back painful memories. so imagine… switching the channel immediately out of fear, fear because every time I heard a song while I was using it brought me back to a time that I did something stupid to me. It brought back a memory of a time I embarrassed myself or hurt the people I love or abandoned people I love, like my daughter. I just stopped listening out of what feelings it brought up.. guilt, shame, pain and bad memories. However, when I got clean, things changed with music and it became part of my recovery. No more did it cause pain. In fact, it became essential for physical pain control and simply smiling, laughing and having fun. I even did an experiment to see if soft rock could get me through a root canal and it did! Music is everything to me now. It is always on. I am always dancing, signing off key and loving it. No longer do I feel emotional pain, shame or guilt. I don’t allow it to take me back to a painful memory, I only allow it to form a new memory. It is an amazing tool to heal a creature throughout and I could not live without it.
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This tatoo pulled at my heart. I've had chronic pain with crohns  disease for 40 years, add the surgeries and arthritis,  the shots in my joints, this describes what I could never say.  But I'm still here..  Still alive, have 4 children and 1 grandchild.  At 64, life has been  difficult, but When I look to the sky, It's worth it.  Stay strong, and thank you for the art.

I’m a queer 32-year-old lady, and I’ve kinda given up on waiting to manage my pain/illnesses before seeking a relationship. I’ve been out of the dating game for years, and would really appreciate any advice or suggestions on how to get back in. #ChronicPain