Alice in Wonderland

Having paranoid schizoaffective, ive taken to calling my paranoia the jabberwocky, because it has no shape, its just a big scary thing with teeth and claws that i cant describe. And in the end it gets its cumuppance, i like to think so anyway. And even though lately ive been struggling with depersonalization/ derealization sometimes just one sometimes all at once. And actually coming to the conclusion that reality is just consensus philosophically. I still feel like im on this crazy amazing ride, its interesting and scary and im always curious whats next, and theres even small moments of joy here an there, ive been getting more of those as time goes on thankfully. Ill have my ups an downs, sure. But i will manage, everyday i try an strengthen my turn around. To be like water. To learn wisdom and knowledge and try to be cross consistent, taking whatever i can use. Its fun and interesting. I guess all im saying is im glad ive found purpose for myself, in making the most of figuring out this wonderland were all in. Its a depthless treasure all the bizarre strangeness life offers sometimes. And i like that. #AliceInWonderland #Paranoia #dpdr #schizoaffective

When I'm manic, I can either feel like Alice, the White Rabbit, the Mad Hatter, or Cheshire Cat. And I just feel fucking crazy. #Bipolar #Mania #AliceInWonderland