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I don t post on here much, but the oast few days have been difficult for me to get thru. I
can t say exactly why. But I suppose it is a number of things combined. I am 59, gay man. My partner and I have been together 16 yrs and We are married. I have delt with depression for many yrs. I am taking meds and seeing a psychologist that helps me alot. He is one of a handful of people that really know how bad I feel.
I work FT and recently got a promotion. Sometimes it takes every ounce of my strength to get thru the day. That is how I ha e felt the past couple of days. I wish I could just will myself to dissolve and dissappear. But I can t do that to my famiy or husband. My marriage is ok, no fights, no arguments but no affection either. It has been that way for several years.
I always feel a sadness deep within, even when I laugh or am enjoying myself. Does anyone else experience this? It seems to be worsening as I get older. My Dr is reluctant to try any new medications.
Has anyone tried the newer therapies available?
The recent anti-lgbt campaign does not help, when you know politicians don t care about the lain they cause and they are so ignorant. It is hard go let thay role off my back. I have to exist in this world and face my co-workers and family. It is very difficult. Sorry for the long post. Thanks for the platform.🥰

I’ve tried body pillows in the past to help sooth when it’s a rough night but they never helped much. What I discovered does help is my extra weighted blanket! Fold or roll it to a body pillow shape and wrestle it into a position of a person, back support, or something substantial you can hold through the night that won’t slide away. I have one rolled up on my bed all the time now, it really helps comfort me. #self soothing #better sleep #weighted blanket #body pillow

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I woke up in terrible pain this morning. But its ok. I am breathing and alive. Yay!!! 🙌

I read this and had to post.

A lady came in this morning and walked to the front desk to greet us before gasping loudly, " I forgot my dog!!" She forgot to bring her dog to the VET.

I here you. If my ass wasnt attached to me i would forget to take it with me to the bathroom. Lol.

Have a better day. Laugh a bit, its wonderful.