Some difficult days recently
I don t post on here much, but the oast few days have been difficult for me to get thru. I
can t say exactly why. But I suppose it is a number of things combined. I am 59, gay man. My partner and I have been together 16 yrs and We are married. I have delt with depression for many yrs. I am taking meds and seeing a psychologist that helps me alot. He is one of a handful of people that really know how bad I feel.
I work FT and recently got a promotion. Sometimes it takes every ounce of my strength to get thru the day. That is how I ha e felt the past couple of days. I wish I could just will myself to dissolve and dissappear. But I can t do that to my famiy or husband. My marriage is ok, no fights, no arguments but no affection either. It has been that way for several years.
I always feel a sadness deep within, even when I laugh or am enjoying myself. Does anyone else experience this? It seems to be worsening as I get older. My Dr is reluctant to try any new medications.
Has anyone tried the newer therapies available?
The recent anti-lgbt campaign does not help, when you know politicians don t care about the lain they cause and they are so ignorant. It is hard go let thay role off my back. I have to exist in this world and face my co-workers and family. It is very difficult. Sorry for the long post. Thanks for the platform.🥰