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Some difficult days recently

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#better treatment

I don t post on here much, but the oast few days have been difficult for me to get thru. I
can t say exactly why. But I suppose it is a number of things combined. I am 59, gay man. My partner and I have been together 16 yrs and We are married. I have delt with depression for many yrs. I am taking meds and seeing a psychologist that helps me alot. He is one of a handful of people that really know how bad I feel.
I work FT and recently got a promotion. Sometimes it takes every ounce of my strength to get thru the day. That is how I ha e felt the past couple of days. I wish I could just will myself to dissolve and dissappear. But I can t do that to my famiy or husband. My marriage is ok, no fights, no arguments but no affection either. It has been that way for several years.
I always feel a sadness deep within, even when I laugh or am enjoying myself. Does anyone else experience this? It seems to be worsening as I get older. My Dr is reluctant to try any new medications.
Has anyone tried the newer therapies available?
The recent anti-lgbt campaign does not help, when you know politicians don t care about the lain they cause and they are so ignorant. It is hard go let thay role off my back. I have to exist in this world and face my co-workers and family. It is very difficult. Sorry for the long post. Thanks for the platform.🥰

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Wonders of a weighted blanket as a body pillow!

I’ve tried body pillows in the past to help sooth when it’s a rough night but they never helped much. What I discovered does help is my extra weighted blanket! Fold or roll it to a body pillow shape and wrestle it into a position of a person, back support, or something substantial you can hold through the night that won’t slide away. I have one rolled up on my bed all the time now, it really helps comfort me. #self soothing #better sleep #weighted blanket #body pillow


BPD can be “cured”. Is there anyone out there close to the light at the end of the tunnel? What have you done to get where you are?

#BPDDiagnosis #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPDDiagnosis #GettingHelp #better

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Strength Through Ink #Ink #Tattoo #BipolarDisorder #strength #better #ItGetsBetter

Yo! It was about time for another tattoo, so I went and got it done the other day! I am SO happy with how it turned out 🤩🎭

I mainly wanted to have it represent my struggles with bipolar disorder and I think it shows that PERFECTLY! Also, the line "Heaven knows I'm miserable now" was taken from one of my favorite bands (The Smiths) and their song titled "Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now" 🎵

Truth be told, I am /not/ miserable at the moment and am actually feeling pretty damn good, but I have clearly fought tooth and nail through a lot of terrible ugliness in my life, and so I want this tattoo to also be a reminder of where I have come from and how things can go from bad to good (or vice versa) in the blink of an eye 👁 You just never know! I have been on a good streak for a while now and am hoping it stays that way🤞


#broadcaaster 4 30 years in #Radio . 60 years, divorced, disabled, but #madskills in people work. I live in poverty & need to BE #better & #Work


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#broadcaaster 4 30 years in #Radio . 60 years, divorced, disabled, but #madskills in people work. I live in poverty & need to BE #better & #Work


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Have A Better Day #better # fibro#Laugh #today #live

I woke up in terrible pain this morning. But its ok. I am breathing and alive. Yay!!! 🙌

I read this and had to post.

A lady came in this morning and walked to the front desk to greet us before gasping loudly, " I forgot my dog!!" She forgot to bring her dog to the VET.

I here you. If my ass wasnt attached to me i would forget to take it with me to the bathroom. Lol.

Have a better day. Laugh a bit, its wonderful.

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#ThankYou #mightywarriors #today #better #OCD #Schizophrenia

Thanks everyone for your yesterday thru a very trying day. I did get the piece of wood placed in such a way ( in the terrarium )that the hermit crabs should be safe. I'm kerping an eye on them. Just in case. Also this morning I DID make the Birthday e-card for my niece just in time!!! So those 2 BIG worrisome tasks are over with & today has been a happy day!!!