I am struggling. I am struggling with my body image. Self-loathing is taking over my life right now. I feel this is a subject that needs to be discussed.
I have a rare bone disease called McCune Albright syndrome. I had an eventful childhood in and out of hospitals for years because it was more extreme when I was younger. Broken bones all the time. It’s very rare but it does affect people differently. It has affected my bones from the neck down. Some can’t walk or have facial deformities. I have had my own adversities in regard to deformities in my lower extremities. I consider myself lucky or unlucky. I thought that I had made peace with my body and embraced my differences, but sadly, I’m still struggling.
It’s not OK to body shame anyone! I have felt body shamed by people who I thought cared about me and know me well. It’s extremely painful for me to discuss these issues because it’s causing me to hate my body. I hate my body so much that I can’t even look at myself naked. The worst part is, I feel that my body is unattractive to men. My fear is that I will never find a man who will love and accept my body for what it is and how it looks.
Having a physical disability has been difficult to deal with, especially when those close to me have body-shamed me. I would like to shed light on this matter because I don’t think that anyone should be criticized for having imperfections.