Cancer

I think the church situation may be different from the community- at least the dentist-one of the businesses that i think plott ways for me to stand up for myself- none of their business

So, the church is one thing

The dentist is another-
Then the other dentist is another- both in my mind have messed me up- I am not 100# sure but i think in an effort for me to stand up for myself

Then there is the church

What should I do?

Then there is the neighborhood?
The neighbor- and the neighbors in general-

Then there is the doctor w my recent surgery-
He wasn’t clear what a partial or a complete hysterectomy would entail-the procedure-
He did not want to take the time to discuss

He recommended a complete hysterectomy

I said i wanted a partial hysterectomy

I ended up having a partial hysterectomy- any mention of a discussion re this/he seemed to get angry- or upset-
So. It wasn’t discussed to my liking/ so i ended up w a partial hysterectomy- the surgeon was not willing to discuss further/

Now after i had a partial hysterectomy/ and he received the toxolgy report- now he recommends he goes in again- for a complete hysterectomy- there are alternatives-
He said according to the toxicology report-I have a 5 to 10% chance of getting cancer if I don’t have the complete hysterectomy-

I think I am going to take the risk and go w his alternatives- semi yearly or yearly checkups-
The surgery was very painful for me.
The surgeon said some people do not experience any pain-
So, I have these situations to figure out-

One dentist I have tomorrow- try to handle - w dear man- they have dumped on me & my husband This again is part of the humiliation-
I feel these situations have been planned/ my therapist says-no. I 100% disgree- my business thank you- not theirs/embarassing, humiliation

The church decision is Saturday- I am having the service said for my dear late mother/
W the service last Sunday - I have to think/
I don’t know/ this was part of the humiliation
The service last Sunday’s said/ to forgive and have peace/ then the priest said let the healing begin-

The church senior club was the reason i had my nervous breakdown- 2 years ago/ where i could not stand up for myself- someone disrespected me/ and I stood up to that person once-but not enough- i ended up so upset I ended up in a day hospital—
And also a lecturer at the pulpit prayed for anxiety, depression, mental illness, people on disability- at the time i had worked part time for several years-

I was totally embarrassed and humiliated-

Note reason behind me ending up in the day hospital-

So, I have these things to determine

One dentist is tomorrow

Church is Saturday

The drs - not immediate/ but should work on-

Then the neighbor- next door and neighbors in general.

So like I remember this one girl that was working at the center I was in who was really friendly. She told me to make a wish and it will come true. I think it might actually be coming true but to be honest I should have made a better wish because my life right now is like I am barely living. It would mean the absolute world to me if I got more wishes that can be granted so I can live a more happy fulfilling life. I have always been a spiritual person and I really need so many more wishes to come true. I hope I do get more wishes from someone that will be granted. I am not telling ya’ll what I wished for haha #CheckInWithMe #Disability #MentalHealth #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Mania #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #Psychosis #Bipolar2 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #PostTraumaticStressDisorder #Selfharm #PostpartumDisorders #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide #ChronicIllness #ADHD #Addiction #Autism #AutismSpectrumDisorder #AnorexiaNervosa #BingeEatingDisorder #AspergersSyndrome #AnkylosingSpondylitis #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #Arthritis #Cancer #BreastCancer #Caregiving #CerebralPalsy #CrohnsDisease #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Endometriosis #Epilepsy #Dysautonomia #Grief #Stroke #WarmWishes #MightyTogether #ChronicInflammatoryDemyelinatingPolyneuropathy #Fibromyalgia #Gastroparesis #Loneliness #CongenitalHeartDefectDisease #ChiariMalformation #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder

When I got throat cancer, my oncologist said my cancer was not the worst cancer, but I would have the worst radiation. 25 sessions to my head. I never expected that one of the effects would be ME. I have gone through a lot in my life. I have had a broken back, six knee surgeries, cancer, kidney stones, and more. But, ME is the worst thing I have ever had to handle.