Celebraterecovery

I noticed I #relasped and made a choice to attend and be part of a #supportgroup and I am #Proudofmyself for taking the 1st step and #StayingCommittedtomyRecovery 🙌💪❤

So I’m trying not to end my marriage and lose my (foster to adopt) children.
I’m so depressed, confused, defeated,angry, obsessed, and vengeful.
This month I plan to
File for bankruptcy
Do my work in a timely manner, including documentation
Exercise daily
Pray daily
Eat healthy gluten free sugar free
Work on my happy coffee business daily
Be a good husband and dad
Clean up the house daily
Work on my #Celebraterecovery work
Work on my #CBT work
Read our devotions
Pray that I can handle my depression, anger, vengeance, and defeated feelings.

What else can be done to assist with recovery?

Hello and thanks for reading my wife and I have been together for 14 years, married 5. The last 4 years we have been _#FosterParents . We have three little kids and we are in the process of adopting them
Last year my wife #Cheated on me with her ex boyfriend
This #Affair left me in a #MajorDepression .
I can’t #forgive , I can’t forget, and I am #obsessed with how this happened
We go to marriage counseling
I go to men’s group and to #Celebraterecovery
I’m working on my #CBT skills
I’d like to keep my family and recover
However
I feel the need to destroy her ex boyfriend and his family
I feel the need to end my marriage and, by doing so, give up my children that we love dearly
Anyone been here?
Any tips, advice, or kind words?
Thanks for readingp