Obssesivethoughts

how do you deal with college and work life with ocd , i've always had ocd but it's my first time to have thoughts about college it's my graduation year and am so anxious as i don't study ot attend classes at all i had a hard panic attack while i was working and since then i avoid studying thinking if i did ot attended a class i will have another hard panic attack and i can't leave my bed because of fear and anxiety avoiding a panic attack , am on meds and it was totally okey but i don't know what happpend

So, I just found out I have OCD and am actually really grateful. I had no idea my thoughts could be OCD, it in a weird way made feel like I can relate to others. Anyway they put me in risperidone but I'm freaking out about the side effects. I asked my doctor about it and she hesitated and said well, it's better than having the symptoms. That didn't help, I'm not taking it now. Wondered if anyone is on meds for OCD that are better. I just wanted to research before I meet with her again.

I have a history of #AnorexiaNervosa and then the opposite in #BingeEatingDisorder . I needed to lose weight just because I’m a bigger guy, and once the lbs started coming off, it was game over. All of the old habits came back and I’m back to measuring weight down to the decimal and measuring how much water I drink. I don’t know how to overcome it and any words of encouragement or advice would be helpful. Thank you.