Trouble forgiving :( #PTSD #CPTSD #Anxiety #Depression #Insomnia #Relationships #Cheated
I really need help. I have been struggling for quite some time to forgive my significant other for cheating. I found out about a lot of inappropriate messages on his social media when he knows my history of having an ex husband who was an addict and had issues with the same thing. This was devastating to me, especially because it coincided with a fatal car accident I was involved in and needed his support. He had his own issues going on at that time, which I am trying to be understanding of. However, I have had a really hard time letting go of what happened. I believe it was a true mistake and nothing like my ex husband, but I feel so so very unsure of myself and uncomfortable all the time now in my own house (jointly owned). I love him so much that I feel unsafe now in my house because he’s there- if that makes sense. I am having a hard time moving past what happened, and keep expressing that hurt in terms of anger, which isn’t fair. To his credit, he typically takes these on the chin and has changed many behaviors that are leading him down a better path. But I keep feeling stuck and though things have gotten better, it’s taking so much time to get over the pain and the mean things I did after I found out because I was so hurt. It all just feels so out of control and I feel helpless and hopeless. Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any thoughts on things I should tell myself or do?