It’s just me and my illness, we’ve been through good and bad but I’ve always fought to be as nothing as possible not defined by what I have but who I am. I am married but my husband buries his head in the sand ignoring my illness and limitations as much as he can, though he likes the convenience of my parking card and my wheelchair so I carry the bags on my knee!
I never thought he would make me feel like he did yesterday though. We went to a Clients new restaurant, he decided to drink not eat. I still work as a lawyer and am the main breadwinner which is stressful, my husband disappeared I found him at the bar chatting to some people in particular a very attractive slim tall girl, I’m on steroids so I’ve gone from 50 kg to 67kg in 12 years of treatment. The girls boyfriend comes up to me tells me my husband has been behaving terrible, needs to stop being all hands with his girlfriend, then another girl shows up throwing herself all over him. At this point the guys get me a chair as my husband is ignoring me, they’re telling me that my husband is rude and that I deserve better and he’s not good enough and all I can think is does he really resent me and my illness that much. He stopped sleeping in the same room as me months ago with lame jokes excuses, keeps makes fun of my weight (he’s far from perfect) and told me once after he had a few too many drinks that he thought I lied and made everything up about my illness - I have brain tumours and multiple other tumours! Now I feel numb from yesterday and his behaviour towards me!